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The Final Quest

By Rick Joyner

Notes to the commentary and mark-up on the Final Quest

I have followed the following conventions:

Passages that I consider note-worthy and that I highlighted in my reading of the book are underlined.

Passages that I consider represent really IMPORTANT TRUTHS or principles are underlined and in bold.

Passages that I consider to be vitally important are also highlighted in Yellow

Where words do not accord with my revelation and understanding I have placed what I consider to be the correct words in square brackets, for example “Jesus [Yahooshua]”

Chapter 1.1 -- Introduction[1]

1 In early 1995, the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] gave me a dream, which was the first of a number of prophetic experiences tied together. 2 I published a condensed version of the first dream in The Morning Star Prophetic Bulletin and The Morning Star Journal, under the title of The Hordes of Hell Are Marching[2]. 3 As I continued to seek the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] about this great spiritual battle that I had seen, I had a series of visions and prophetic experiences that were related to it. 4 I published condensed versions of these in The Morning Star Journal as The Hordes of Hell Are Marching, Parts II & III.

5 This series became probably the most popular writings we have ever published. 6 We were deluged with requests to have all three parts published together in a book. 7 I determined to do this and set about to fill in all that had been left out in the condensed versions. 8 However, just when I was ready to give this to our editing department, I had another prophetic experience that was obviously related to this vision, and contained what I felt to be the most important parts of all.

9 These are included in Parts IV ~ V of this book (some of Part IV was published in Part III in The Journal). 10 There is also a considerable amount of previously unpublished material in the first three parts of this book.

Chapter 1.2 -- How I Received The Vision

1 One of the most common questions that I receive about this vision concerns how I received it. 2 I believe that this is an important question, and therefore will attempt to briefly answer it here. 3 First, I must explain what I mean by visions and "prophetic[1] [supernatural] experiences."

4 Prophetic [Supernatural] "experiences" as I call them are numerous and diverse. 5 They include all of the primary ways in which the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] has spoken to His people in the Scriptures[2]. 6 Because the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] is the same today as He was yesterday, He has never ceased to relate to His people in the same ways, and these experiences continue to be found throughout Church [Assembly] history. 7 As the Apostle [Emissary] Peter explained in his sermon recorded in Acts Chapter Two, dreams, visions and prophecy are primary signs of the last days, and the outpouring of the Holy [Set-Apart][3] [Set-Apart] Spirit. 8 As we are obviously getting closer to the end of this age[4], these are becoming increasingly common in our time.

9 One reason why they are becoming so much more common now is because we will need them for accomplishing our purposes in these times. 10 It is also true that Satan, who unfortunately knows the Scriptures [writings] better than many Christians [Believers]s, also understands the importance of prophetic revelation in God's [Yah’s] relationship to His people, and he is therefore pouring out his own counterfeit gifts in great measure to those who serve him[5]. 11 However, there would be no counterfeit if there was not a genuine reality, just as there are no counterfeit three dollar bills because there are no real ones[6].

12 Soon after I became a Christians [Believers] in 1972, I read this passage in Acts Two and understood that if these were the end times it was important to understand these ways that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] would be speaking to us. 13 I do not remember praying to have the experiences myself at first, but I did begin to have them, which gave me even more impetus for understanding them[7].

14 Since that time I have gone through periods of time when they would be very frequent. 15 I have also gone through long periods of time when I would not have any such experiences. 16 However, after each period of not having them they would return, and were either much more powerful, or much more frequent. 17 Lately they have been both. 18 Through all of this I have learned a great deal about the prophetic [Inspired] gifts, experiences, and prophetic [Inspired] people, which I will address in more detail in a book soon to be released[8].

19 There are many levels of prophetic [Inspired] revelation. 20 The beginning levels include prophetic [Inspired]"impressions." 21 These are genuine revelations. 22 They can be extraordinarily specific and accurate when interpreted by those who are experienced and sensitive to them. 23 However, it is on this level that our "revelations" can be affected by our own feelings, prejudices, and doctrines. 24 I have therefore resolved not to use such expressions as "thus saith the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]" with any revelations that come on this level.

25 Visions can come on the impression level, also. 26 They are gentle and must be seen with "the eyes of our heart." 27 These, too, can be very specific and accurate, especially when received and / or interpreted by those who are experienced. 28 The more the "eyes of our hearts" are opened, as Paul [Shaul] prayed in Ephesians 1:18, the more powerful and useful these can be.

29 The next level of revelation is a conscious sense of the presence of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], or the anointing of the Holy [Set-Apart] [Set-Apart] Spirit, which gives special illumination to our minds. 30 This often comes when I am writing, or speaking, and it gives me much greater confidence in the importance or accuracy of what I am saying. 31 I believe that this was probably experienced by the Apostles [Emissaries] as they wrote the New Testament [Books from MattihYahoo to Revelation][9] epistles [letters][10]. 32 This will give us great confidence, but it is still a level where we can still be influenced by our prejudices, doctrines, etc[11]. 33 This is why I believe, in certain matters, Paul [Shaul][12] would say that he was giving his opinion, but that he thought he had [the agreement of l the Spirit of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 34 In general, there is much more of a need for humility than dogmatism when we deal with the prophetic[13][14] [Supernatural communications].

35 "Open visions" occur on a higher level than impressions; they tend to give us more clarity then we may have even when we feel the conscious presence of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], or the anointing. 36 Open visions are external, and are viewed with the clarity of a movie screen. 37 Because they cannot be controlled by us I believe that there is far less possibility of mixture in revelations that come this way[15].

38 Another higher level prophetic experience is a trance, such as Peter [Kěpha][16] had when he was first instructed to go to the house of Cornelius and preach the gospel [Good News] to the Gentiles for the first time, and such as Paul [Shaul] had when he prayed in the temple in Acts 22. 39 Trances were a common experience[17] of the biblical prophets. 40 Trances are like dreaming when you are awake. 41 Instead of just seeing a "screen" like in an open vision, you feel like you are in the movie, that you are actually there in a strange way. 42 Trances can range from those that are rather mild, so that you are still conscience of your physical surroundings, and can even still interact with them, to those where you feel like you are literally in the place of your vision. 43 This seems to be what Ezekiel experienced rather frequently, and what John [Yahoochanan][18] probably experienced when he had the visions recorded in the book of Revelation.[19]

44 The visions contained in this book all began with a dream. 45 Some of it came under a very intense sense of the presence of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], but the overwhelming majority was received in some level of a trance. 46 Most of it came on the level where I was still conscious of my surroundings, and could even interact with them, such as answering the phone. 47 When they were interrupted, or when things got so intense that I would have to get up and walk around, when I sat back down I would immediately be right back where I had left off. 48 Once the experience became so intense that I actually got up and left the Mountain cabin where I go to seek the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], and drove home. 49 Over a week later I returned and almost immediately I was right back where I left off.

50 I have never known how to "turn on" such experiences, but I have almost always had the liberty to turn them off at will. 51 Twice, large portions of this vision came at what I considered to be very inconvenient times, when I had gone to my cabin to get some important work done while facing a deadline. 52 Two of our Journal issues were a little late going out because of this, and the last book I released I had hoped to finish a few months earlier. 53 But the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] does not seem to be very concerned about our deadlines![20]

54 In the dream and the trances, I had what I consider to be greatly magnified gifts of discernment and words of knowledge. 55 Sometimes when I look at a person, or pray for a Church [Assembly] or ministry, I just start to know things about them of which I have no natural knowledge. 56 During these prophetic [supernatural communication] experiences these gifts were operating on a level that I have never personally experienced in "real life." 57 That is, in this vision I could look at a division of the evil horde and know all of its strategies and capabilities at once. 58 I do not know how the knowledge came to me, but I just knew it, and in great detail. 59 In some cases I would look at something or someone and know their past, present and future all at once. 60 To save time and space in this book I have included this knowledge just as matter of fact without going into an explanation of how I got it[21].

Chapter 1.3 -- Using Prophetic [Supernatural] Revelations

1 I must state emphatically that I do not believe that any kind of prophet [Spokesman]ic [Inspired] revelation is for the purpose of establishing doctrine[1] {JAR -- HUGE ERROR see footnote}. 2 We have the Scriptures [historical writings] for that. 3 There are two basic uses for the prophetic [Inspired experiences]. 4 The first is for revealing the present or future strategic will of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] in certain matters. 5 We have examples of this in Paul [Shaul]'s dream to go to Macedonia, and the trance in which he was told to immediately leave Jerusalem. 6 We, also, have examples of this in the ministry of Agabus. 7 One of these related to a famine that was to come upon the whole world, and the other had to do with Paul’s [Shaul's] visit to Jerusalem[2].

8 We, also, see such revelations being given for illuminating doctrine that is taught in the Scripture [Historical writings], but is not clearly seen. 9 The example of Peter's [Kepha’s] trance is one that illuminated both the will of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], and sound biblical[3] [important principles] teaching that the Scriptures [historical writings] were very clear about (the Gentiles being able to receive the gospel [Good News]), but which had not yet been understood by the Church [Assembly].

10 The visions in this book do contain some strategic revelations, and they also illuminated some biblical [historical] doctrines that I had honestly not seen before, but now see quite clearly. 11 However, most of the doctrine [teaching][4] that was illuminated to me in these experiences I have known and taught for years, even though I cannot say that I have lived them all very well[5]. 12 Many times I thought about the warning that Paul [Shaul] gave to Timothy to pay attention to his own teachings. 13 Many of the words spoken to me in these experiences I have, myself, taught many times. 14 I know that I fail to practice some of my own teachings the way I should, and, therefore, many of these I accepted as a personal rebuke. 15 Even so, I also felt that they were general messages and I have included them here[6].

16 I was encouraged by some to write this as an allegory, in third person like The Pilgrim's Progress, but I decided against it for several reasons. 17 First, I feel that some would have taken this to be the result of my own creativity, and that would have been wrong. 18 I would like to be this creative, but I am not.

19 Another reason was that I felt that I could be much more accurate if I related it just like I received it, and I did my best to convey these experiences just the way that they were received[7]. 20 However, I consider my memory of details to be one of my greatest weaknesses. 21 At times I have questioned my own memory for certain details in this vision, and I think that you should therefore have the liberty to do the same[8]. 22 I think that this is right with any such messages. 23 Only the Scriptures [historical writings] deserve to be considered infallible[9]. 24 As you read I pray that the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit will lead you to the truth, and separate any chaff that may be present from the wheat.

Rick Joyner

Chapter 2.1 -- Part I, The Hordes of Hell Are Marching[1]

1 The demonic army was so large that it stretched as far as I could see. 2 It was separated into divisions, with each carrying a different banner. 3 The foremost divisions marched under the banners of Pride, Self-righteousness, Respectability, Selfish Ambition, Unrighteous Judgment, and Jealousy. 4 There were many more of these evil divisions beyond my scope of vision, but those in the vanguard of this terrible horde from hell seemed to be the most powerful. 5 The leader of this army was the Accuser of the Brethren himself[2].

6 The weapons carried by this horde were also named. 7 The swords were named Intimidation; the spears were named Treachery; and the arrows were named Accusation, Gossip, Slander and Faultfinding. 8 Scouts and smaller companies of demons[3] with such names as Rejection, Bitterness, Impatience, Unforgiveness and Lust were sent in advance of this army to prepare for the main attack.

9 These smaller companies and scouts were much fewer in number, but they were no less powerful than some of the larger divisions that followed. 10 They were smaller only for strategic reasons. 11 Just as John the Baptist was a single man, but was given an extraordinary anointing for baptizing the masses to prepare them for the Lord [Yahooshua][4], these smaller demonic companies were given extraordinary evil powers for "baptizing the masses." 12 A single demon of Bitterness could sow his poison into multitudes of people, even entire races or cultures. 13 A demon of Lust would attach himself to a single performer, movie, or even advertisement, and send what appeared to be bolts of electric slime that would hit and "desensitize" great masses of people. 14 All of this was to prepare for the great horde of evil which followed.

15 This army was marching specifically against the Church [assembly of Believers][5], but it was attacking everyone that it could. 16 I knew that it was seeking to pre-empt a coming move of Jesus [Yahooshua? / Yah?[6]] which was destined[7] to sweep masses of people into the Church [assembly of Believers[8]].

17 The primary strategy of this army was to cause division on every possible level of relationship—Churches [Assemblies] with each other, congregations with their pastors, husbands and wives, children and parents, and even children with each other. 18 The scouts were sent to locate the openings in Churches [Assemblies], families or individuals that Rejection, Bitterness, Lust, etc., 19 could exploit and make larger. 20 Then the following divisions would pour through the openings to completely overcome their victims.

21 The most shocking part of this vision was that this horde was not riding on horses, but primarily on Christians [Believers]![9][10] 22 Most of them were well-dressed, respectable, and had the appearance of being refined and educated, but there also seemed to be representatives from almost every walk of life. 23 These people professed Christians [Believers] [Believing] truths in order to appease their consciences, but they lived their lives in agreement with the powers of darkness[11]. 24 As they agreed with those powers their assigned demons grew and more easily directed their actions.

25 Many of these believers were host to more than one demon, but one would obviously be in charge. 26 The nature of the one in charge dictated which division it was marching in. 27 Even though the divisions were all marching together, it also seemed that at the same time the entire army was on the verge of chaos. 28 For example, the demons of hate, hated the other demons as much as they did the Christians [Believers]s [and others]. 29 The demons of jealousy were all jealous of one another. 30 The only way the leaders of this horde kept the demons from fighting each other was to keep their hatred, jealousy, etc., 31 focused on the people they were riding. 32 However, these people would often break out in fights with each other. 33 I knew that this was how some of the armies that had come against Israel in the Scriptures [historical writings] had ended up destroying themselves. 34 When their purpose against Israel was thwarted, their rage was uncontrollable, and they simply began fighting each other.

35 I noted that the demons were riding on these Christians [Believers], but were not in them as was the case with non-Christians [Believers]s [Non-Believers]. 36 It was obvious that these believers[12] had only to stop agreeing with their demons in order to get free of them. 37 For example, if the Christians [Believers] [Believer] on which a demon of jealousy was riding just started to question the jealousy, that demon would weaken very fast. 38 When this happened the weakening demon would cry out and the leader of the division would direct all of the demons around that Christians [Believers] [Believer] to attack him until the bitterness, etc., 39 would build up on him again. 40 If this did not work, the demons would begin quoting Scriptures [Bible and Other Verses][13] that were perverted in such a way that would justify the bitterness, accusations, etc.

41 It was clear that the power of the demons was rooted almost entirely in the power of deception[14], but they had deceived these Christians [Believers]s [Believers] to the point where they could use them and they would think they were being used by Jesus [not Yahooshua -- Yah][15]. 42 This was because banners of Self-righteousness were being carried by almost all of the individuals so that those marching could not even see the banners that marked the true nature of these divisions.

43 As I looked far to the rear of this army I saw the entourage of the Accuser himself. 44 I began to understand his strategy, and I was amazed that it was so simple. 45 He knew that a house divided cannot stand[16], and this army represented an attempt to bring such division to the Church [body of Believers] that she would completely fall from grace. 46 It was apparent that the only way he could do this was to use Christians [Believers]s [Believers] to war against their own brethren[17], and that is why almost everyone in the forward divisions were Christians [Believers]s [Believers], or at least professing Christians [Believers]s [Believers]. 47 Every step that these deceived believers took in obedience to the Accuser strengthened his power over them. 48 This made his confidence and the confidence of all of his commanders grow with the progress of the army as it marched forward. 49 It was apparent that the power of this army depended on the agreement of these Christians [Believers]s [Believers] with the ways of evil[18].

Chapter 2.2 -- The Prisoners

1 Trailing behind these first divisions was a multitude of other Christians [Believers]s [Believers] who were prisoners of this army. 2 All of these were wounded, and were guarded by smaller demons of Fear. 3 There seemed to be more prisoners than there were demons in the army. 4 Surprisingly, these prisoners still had their swords[1] and shields, but they did not use them.[2] 5 It was a shock to see that so many could be kept captive by so few of the little demons of Fear[3]. 6 If the Christians [Believers]s [Believers] had just used their weapons they could have easily freed themselves, and probably done great damage to the entire evil horde. 7 Instead they marched submissively along.

8 Above the prisoners the sky was black with vultures named Depression[4]. 9 Occasionally these would land on the shoulders of a prisoner and would vomit on him. 10 The vomit was Condemnation[5]. 11 When the vomit hit a prisoner he would stand up and march a little straighter for a while, and then slump over, even weaker than before. 12 Again, I wondered why the prisoners did not simply kill these vultures with their swords, which they could have easily done[6].

13 Occasionally the weaker prisoners would stumble and fall. 14 As soon as they hit the ground, the other prisoners would begin stabbing them with their swords[7], scorning them as they did this[8]. 15 The vultures would then come and begin devouring the fallen ones even before they were dead. 16 The other Christians [Believers] prisoners stood by and watched this approvingly, occasionally stabbing the fallen one again with their swords.

17 As I watched, I realized that these prisoners thought that the vomit of Condemnation was truth from Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah]. 18 Then I understood that these prisoners actually thought they were marching in the army of Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah]! 19 This is why they did not kill the little demons of fear, or the vultures—they thought these were messengers from Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah]! 20 The darkness from the cloud of vultures made it so hard for these prisoners to see that they naively accepted everything that happened to them as being from the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 21 They felt that those who stumbled were under God's [Yah’s] judgment, which is why they attacked them the way they did they thought that they were helping Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah]!

22 The only food provided for these prisoners was the vomit from the vultures. 23 Those who refused to eat it simply weakened until they fell. 24 Those who did eat it were strengthened for a time, but with the strength of the evil one. 25 Then they would weaken unless they would drink the waters of bitterness that were constantly being offered to them. 26 After drinking the bitter waters they would then begin to vomit on the others. 27 When one of the prisoners began to do this, a demon that was waiting for a ride would climb up on him, and would ride him up to one of the front divisions.

28 Even worse than the vomit from the vultures was a repulsive slime that these demons were urinating and defecating upon the Christians [Believers] they rode. 29 This slime was the pride, selfish ambition, etc., 30 that was the nature of their division. 31 However, this slime made the Christians [Believers] feel so much better than the condemnation that they easily believed that the demons were messengers of Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah], and they actually thought this slime was the anointing of the Holy [Set-Apart] [Set-Apart] Spirit.

32 I had been so repulsed by the evil army that I wanted to die. 33 Then the voice of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] came to me saying, "This is the beginning of the enemy's last day army. 34 This is Satan's ultimate deception. 35 His ultimate power of destruction is released when he uses Christians [Believers] to attack one another. 36 Throughout the ages he has used this army, but never has he been able to use so many for his evil purposes as he is now. 37 Do not fear. 38 I have an army too. 39 You must now stand and fight, because there is no longer any place to hide from this war. 40 You must fight for My kingdom, for truth, and for those who have been deceived. "

41 This word from the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] was so encouraging that I immediately began yelling to the Christians [Believing] prisoners that they were deceived, thinking that they would listen to me. 42 When I did this, it seemed that the whole army turned to look at me. 43 The fear and depression that was over them started to come toward me. 44 I still kept yelling because I thought that the Christians [Believers] would wake up and realize what was happening to them, but instead many of them started reaching for their arrows[9] to shoot at me. 45 The others just hesitated as if they did not know what to make of me. 46 I knew then that I had done this prematurely, and that it had been a very foolish mistake.

Chapter 2.3 -- The Battle Begins

1 Then I turned and saw the army of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] standing behind me. 2 There were thousands of soldiers, but they were still greatly outnumbered. 3 I was shocked and disheartened as it seemed that there were actually many more Christians [Believers] being used by the evil one than there were in the army of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing][1]. 4 I also knew that the battle that was about to begin was going to be viewed as The Great Christians [Believers][2] Civil War[3] because very few would understand the powers that were behind the impending conflict.

5 As I looked more closely at the army of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] the situation seemed even more discouraging. 6 Only a small number were fully dressed in their armor[4]. 7 Many only had one or two pieces of their armor on; some did not have any at all[5]. 8 A large number were already wounded [6]. 9 Most of those who had all of their armor still had very small shields[7] which I knew would not protect them from the onslaught that was coming. 10 To my further surprise, the great majority of these soldiers were women and children[8]. 11 Very few of those who were fully armed were adequately trained to use their arms.

12 Behind this army there was a trailing mob similar to the prisoners who followed the evil horde, but these were very different in nature. 13 They seemed overly happy, as if intoxicated. 14 They were playing games, singing songs, feasting and roaming about from one little camp to the next. 15 This reminded me of Woodstock[9].

16 I ran toward the army of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] to escape the onslaught that I knew would be coming at me from the evil horde. 17 In every way it seemed that we were in for a most one- sided slaughter. 18 I was especially concerned for this mob that was trailing the army, so I tried to raise my voice above the clamor to warn them that a battle was about to begin. 19 Only a few could even hear me. 20 Those who did, gave me the "peace sign" and said they did not believe in war, and that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] would not let anything bad happen to them. 21 I tried to explain that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] had given us armor because we needed it for what was about to happen, but they just retorted that they had come to a place of peace and joy where nothing like that could happen to them. 22 I began praying earnestly for the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] to increase the shields of those with the armor to help protect those who were not ready for the battle[10].

23 Then a messenger came up to me, gave me a trumpet and told me to blow it quickly[11]. 24 I did, and those who had on at least some of their armor immediately responded, snapping to attention. 25 More armor was brought to them, which they quickly put on. 26 I noticed that those who had wounds did not put armor over their wounds, but before I could say anything about this, enemy arrows began raining down on us. 27 Everyone who did not have on all of his armor was wounded[12]. 28 Those who had not covered their wounds were struck again in that wound.

29 Those who were hit by arrows of slander immediately began to slander those who were not wounded. 30 Those who were hit with gossip began to gossip, and soon a major division had been created within our own camp. 31 I felt that we were on the verge of destroying ourselves just as some of the heathen armies in Scripture [the historical writings] had done by rising up to kill each other. 32 The feeling of helplessness was terrible. 33 Then vultures swooped down to pick up the wounded and deliver them into the camp of prisoners. 34 The wounded still had swords[13] and could have struck down the vultures easily, but they didn't. 35 They were actually carried off willingly because they were so angry at those who were not wounded like they were.

36 I quickly thought about the mob behind the army and ran to see what had happened to them. 37 It seemed impossible but the scene among them was even worse. 38 Thousands lay on the ground wounded and groaning. 39 The sky over them was darkened by the vultures that were carrying them off to become prisoners of the enemy. 40 Many of those who were not wounded just sat in a stupor of unbelief, and they, too, were easily carried away by the vultures. 41 A few had begun to try to fight off the vultures, but they did not have the proper weapons, and the vultures did not even pay them any attention. 42 The wounded were so angry they would threaten and drive away anyone who tried to help them, but they became docile and submissive to the vultures[14].

43 Those from this mob who had not been wounded and had tried to fight off the vultures began running from the scene of battle. 44 This first encounter with the enemy was so devastating that I was tempted to join them in their flight. 45 Then, amazingly fast, some of those who had fled began reappearing with full suits of armor on, holding large shields. 46 This was the first bit of encouragement that I remember seeing[15].

47 These warriors who were returning no longer had the mirth of the party, but an awesome resolve had replaced it. 48 I knew that these had been deceived once, but that they would not be easily deceived again. 49 They began to take the places of those who had fallen, and even began forming new ranks to protect the rear and flanks. 50 This caused great courage to spread through the army so that the determination of everyone to stand and fight again began to rise. 51 Immediately three great angels named Faith [Emunah][16], Hope and Love [Chesed][17] came and stood behind the army. 52 As we looked at them all of our shields began to grow. 53 It was amazing how quickly despair had turned to Faith [Emunah]. 54 It was a solid Faith [Emunah], too, tempered by experience[18].

Chapter 2.4 -- The High Way

1 Now everyone had swords named the Word [Commandments] of Jesus [NOT Yahooshua -- Yah], and arrows that were named for different biblical [fundamental] truths. 2 We wanted to shoot back, but we did not know how to avoid hitting the Christians [Believers] that were being ridden by the demons. 3 Then it occurred to us that if these Christians [Believers]s were hit with Truth they would wake up and fight off their oppressors. 4 I fired off a few arrows, as did some of the others. 5 Almost all of them hit Christians [Believers]. 6 However, when the arrow of Truth went into them, they did not wake up, or fall down wounded they became enraged, and the demon riding on them grew much larger.

7 This shocked everyone, and we began to feel that this was an impossible battle to win. 8 Even so, with Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed][1] we were confident that we could at least hold our own ground. 9 Another great angel [Messenger] named Wisdom[2] then appeared and directed us to fight from the Mountain behind us[3].

10 On the Mountain there were ledges at different levels for as high as we could see. 11 At each higher level the ledges became narrower, and more difficult to stand on. 12 Each level was named for a biblical [fundamental] truth. 13 The lower levels were named after foundational truths such as "Salvation," "Sanctification," "Prayer," "Faith [Emunah]," etc., 14 and the higher levels were named after deeper biblical [fundamental] truths. 15 The higher we climbed, the larger both our shields and our swords grew, and fewer of the enemy arrows could reach our positions.

Chapter 2.5 -- A Tragic Mistake

1 Some who had stayed on the lower levels began picking up the enemy arrows and shooting them back. 2 This was a very grave mistake. 3 The demons easily dodged the arrows and let them hit the Christians [Believers]. 4 When a Christian [Believer] was hit by one of the arrows of accusation or slander, a demon of bitterness or rage would fly in and perch on that arrow. 5 He would then begin to urinate and defecate his poison upon that Christian [Believer]. 6 When a Christian [Believer] had two or three of these demons added to the pride or self-righteousness he already had, he was transformed into the contorted image of the demons themselves.

7 We could see this happening from the higher levels, but those on the lower levels who were using the enemy's arrows could not see it. 8 About half of us decided to keep climbing, while the other half descended back to the lower levels to explain to those below what was happening. 9 Everyone was then warned to keep climbing and not to stop, except for a few who stationed themselves on each level to keep the other soldiers moving higher[1].

Chapter 2.6 -- Safety

1 When we reached the level called "The Unity of the Brethren," none of the enemy's arrows could reach us[1]. 2 Many in our camp decided that this was as far as they needed to climb. 3 I understood this because with each new level the footing was more precarious[2]. 4 However, I also felt much stronger and more skillful with my weapons as I went higher, so I continued climbing.

5 Soon my skills were good enough to shoot and hit the demons without hitting the Christians [Believers][3]. 6 I felt that if I kept going higher I could shoot far enough to hit the main leaders of the evil horde who stayed behind their army. 7 I regretted that so many had stopped on the lower levels where they were safe but could not hit the enemy. 8 Even so, the strength and character that grew in those who kept climbing made them great champions, each one able to destroy many of the enemy[4].

9 At each level there were arrows of Truth scattered about which I knew were left from those who had fallen from that position (many had fallen from each position). 10 All of the arrows were named after the Truth of that level. 11 Some were reluctant to pick up these arrows, but I knew we needed all that we could to destroy the great horde below. 12 I picked one up, shot it, and so easily hit a demon that the others started picking them up and shooting them. 13 We began to decimate several of the enemy divisions. 14 Because of this, the entire evil army focused its attention on us. 15 For a time it seemed that the more we achieved, the more the enemy attacked us. 16 Though our task seemed endless, it had become exhilarating[5].

17 Since the enemy could not hit us on the higher levels with its arrows, swarms of vultures would fly above us to vomit down on us, or to carry demons who would urinate or defecate upon the ledges, making them very slippery[6].

Chapter 2.7 -- The Anchor

1  Our swords grew after we reached each level[1], but I almost left mine behind because I did not seem to need it at the higher levels. 2 I almost casually decided to keep it, thinking that it must have been given to me for a reason. 3 Then, because the ledge I was standing on was so narrow, and becoming so slippery, I drove the sword into the ground and tied myself to it while I shot at the enemy[2]. 4 The voice of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] then came to me, saying: "You have used the wisdom that will enable you to keep climbing. 5 Many have fallen because they did not use their sword properly to anchor themselves. 6 " No one else seemed to hear this voice, but many saw what I had done and did the same.

7 I wondered why the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] had not spoken to me to do this sooner. 8 I then knew that He had already spoken this to me somehow. 9 As I pondered this, I began to understand that my whole life had been training for this hour. 10 I knew that I was prepared to the degree that I had listened to the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] and obeyed His voice throughout my life. 11 I also knew that for some reason the wisdom and understanding I now had could not be increased or taken away while in this battle. 12 I was very thankful for every trial I had experienced in my life, and I was sorry for not appreciating them more at the time[3].

13 Soon we were hitting the demons with almost perfect accuracy[4]. 14 Rage ascended from the enemy army like fire and brimstone. 15 I knew that the Christians [Believers] trapped in that army were now feeling the brunt of that rage. 16 Some became so enraged that they were now shooting at each other. 17 Normally this would have been very encouraging, but those who suffered the most were the deceived Christians [Believers] who were in the camp of the enemy. 18 I knew that to the world this was appearing as an incomprehensible meltdown of Christianity [Believers] itself[5].

19 Some of those who had not used their swords as anchors were able to strike down many of the vultures, but they were also more easily knocked from the ledges where they were standing. 20 Some of these landed on a lower level, but some fell all the way to the bottom[6] and were picked up and carried off by the vultures. 21 I spent every free moment that I got trying to drive my sword deeper into the ledge[7], or trying to tie myself more securely to it. 22 Every time I did this, Wisdom would stand beside me so I knew that it was very important.

Chapter 2.8 -- A New Weapon[1]

1 The arrows of Truth would seldom penetrate the vultures, but they hurt them enough to drive them back. 2 Every time they were driven back far enough some of us would climb to the next level. 3 When we reached the level called "Galatians Two Twenty[2]," we were above the altitude that the vultures could withstand. 4 At this level the sky above almost blinded us with its brightness and beauty. 5 I felt peace like I had never felt it before.

6 Until I reached this level much of my fighting spirit had been motivated almost as much from fear, hatred or disgust for the enemy as it had been for the sake of the kingdom, truth, or Love [Chesed] for the prisoners. 7 But it was on this level I caught up to Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed], which before I had only been able to see from a distance. 8 Here I was almost overpowered by their glory.

9 Even so, I felt that I could get close to them. 10 When I got next to them they turned to me, and began repairing and shining my armor. 11 Soon it was transformed and brilliantly reflected the glory that was coming from Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed]. 12 When they touched my sword, great bolts of brilliant lightning began flashing from it. 13 Love [Chesed] then said, "Those who reach this level are entrusted with the powers of the age to come." 14 Then, turning to me with a seriousness that was very sobering, he said, "I still must teach you how to use them."

15 The "Galatians Two Twenty" level was so wide that there did not seem to be any danger of falling[3]. 16 There were also unlimited arrows with the name Hope written on them[4]. 17 We shot some of them down at the vultures, and these arrows killed them easily. 18 About half who had reached this level kept shooting while the others began carrying these arrows down to those still on the lower levels.

19 The vultures kept coming in waves upon the levels below, but with each one there would be fewer than before. 20 From "Galatians Two Twenty" we could hit any enemy in the army except the leaders themselves, who remained just out of our range. 21 We decided not to use the arrows of truth until we had destroyed all of the vultures, because the cloud of depression they created made the truth less effective[5]. 22 This took a very long time, but we did not get tired[6]. 23 Finally, it seemed as if the sky over the Mountain was almost completely rid of the vultures.

24 Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed], who had grown like our weapons with each level, were now so large that I knew people far beyond the battle area could see them. 25 Their glory even radiated into the camp of prisoners who were still under a great cloud of vultures. 26 I was very encouraged that they could now be seen this way. 27 Maybe now the Christians [Believers] who had been used by the enemy, and the prisoners who were held by them, would understand that we were not the enemy, but they in fact had been used by him.

28 But this was not to be the case, at least not yet. 29 Those in the camp of the enemy who began to see the light of Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed] started calling them "angels [Messengers]  of light" who were sent to deceive the weak or undiscerning. 30 I knew then that their deception and bondage was much greater than I had realized[7].

31 However, any who were not a part of either of these armies, the non-Christians [unbelievers], saw their glory and started to come closer to the Mountain to get a better view. 32 Those who came closer to see them also started to understand what the battle had really been about. 33 This was a great encouragement.

34 The exhilaration of victory continued to grow in all of us. 35 I felt that being in this army, in this battle, had to be one of the greatest adventures of all time[8]. 36 After destroying most of the vultures that had been attacking our Mountain[9], we began picking off the vultures that still covered the prisoners. 37 As the cloud of darkness began dissipating and the sun began to shine down on them, they, too, began to wake up as if they had been in a deep sleep. 38 They were immediately repulsed by their condition, especially by the vomit that still covered them, and started cleaning themselves up. 39 As they beheld Faith [Emunah], Hope, and Love [Chesed], they also saw the Mountain and ran toward it[10].

40 The evil horde sent arrows of Accusation and Slander at their backs, but they did not stop. 41 By the time they got to the Mountain many had a dozen or more arrows stuck in them, yet they seemed not to even notice[11]. 42 As soon as they began to scale the Mountain their wounds began to heal. 43 With the cloud of depression having been dispelled it seemed as lifeverything was now getting much easier.

Chapter 2.9 -- The Trap

1 The former prisoners had great joy in their salvation[1]. 2 They seemed so overwhelmed with appreciation for each level as they began to scale the Mountain that it gave us a greater appreciation for those truths. 3 Soon a fierce resolve to fight the enemy also arose in the former prisoners. 4 They put on the armor provided and begged to be allowed to go back and attack the enemy who had held them captive, and had abused them for so long. 5 We thought about it, but then decided we should all stay on the Mountain to fight. 6 Again the voice of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] spoke, saying: “A second time you have chosen wisdom. 7 You cannot win if you try to fight the enemy on his own ground, but you must remain on My Holy [Set-Apart] [Set-Apart] Mountain[2]. "

8 I was stunned that we had made another decision of such importance just by thinking and briefly discussing it. 9 I then resolved to do my best to not make another decision of any consequence without prayer[3]. 10 Wisdom then stepped up to me quickly, took both of my shoulders firmly and looked me straight in the eyes, saying: "You must do this!"

11 As Wisdom said this to me he pulled me forward as if he were saving me from something. 12 I looked back and saw that, even though I had been on the broad plateau of “Galatians Two Twenty," I had drifted to the very edge without even knowing it. 13 I had come very close to falling off the Mountain. 14 I looked again into the eyes of Wisdom, and he said with the utmost seriousness, "Take heed when you think you stand, lest you fall. 15 In this life, you can fall from any level. [4]"

16 I thought about this for quite a while. 17 In the exuberance of the victory we were starting to achieve, and the unity of the brethren, I had become careless. 18 It was more noble to fall because of the onslaught of the enemy than to fall because of carelessness.

Chapter 2.10 -- The Serpents

1 For a long time we continued killing the vultures and picking off the demons that were riding the Christians [Believers]. 2 We found that the arrows of different Truths would have greater impact on different demons. 3 We knew that it was going to be a long battle, but we were not suffering any more casualties now, and we had continued to climb past the level of "Patience." 4 Even so, after these Christians [Believers] had the demons shot off of them, few would come to the Mountain. 5 Many had taken on the nature of the demons, and continued in their delusion without them[1]. 6 As the darkness of the demons dissipated we could see the ground moving around the feet of these Christians [Believers]. 7 Then I saw that their legs were bound by serpents. 8 As I kept looking at the serpents I saw that they were all the same kind, and had the name Shame[2] written on them.

9 We shot arrows of Truth at the serpents, but they had little effect. 10 We then tried the arrows of Hope, but without results. 11 From "Galatians Two Twenty" it had been very easy to go higher because we all helped each other. 12 Since there seemed to be little that we could do now against the enemy we decided to just try to climb as far as we could until we found something that would work against the serpents.

13 We passed levels of truth very fast. 14 On most of them we did not even bother to look around if there was not a weapon apparent that would work on the serpents. 15 Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed] stayed right with us, but I had not noticed that we had left Wisdom far behind[3]. 16 It would be a long time before I would understand what a mistake this was. 17 He would catch up to us on the top, but leaving him behind cost us a much quicker and easier victory over the evil horde.

18 Almost without warning we came to a level that opened up into a garden. 19 It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen. 20 Over the entrance to this garden was written, "The Father's Unconditional Love [Chesed]." 21 This entrance was so glorious and inviting that we just could not resist entering. 22 As soon as I entered I saw a tree that I knew was the Tree of Life. 23 It was in the middle of this garden, and it was still guarded by angels [Messengers]  of awesome power and authority. 24 When I looked at them they looked back. 25 They seemed friendly, as if they had been expecting us. 26 I looked back and there was now a host of other warriors in the garden. 27 This gave us all courage, and because of the angels [Messengers] ' demeanor, we decided to pass them to get to the tree. 28 One of the angels [Messengers]  called out, "Those who make it to this level, who know the Father's Love [Chesed], can eat.[4]"

29 I did not realize how hungry I was. 30 When I tasted the fruit, it was better than anything I had ever tasted, but it was, also, somehow familiar. 31 It brought memories of sunshine, rain, beautiful fields, the sun setting over the ocean, but even more than that, of the people I Love [Chesed]. 32 With every bite I Loved [Cheseded] everything and everyone more. 33 Then my enemies started coming to mind, and I Loved [Cheseded] them, too.[5] 34 The feeling was soon greater than anything I had ever experienced, even the peace on "Galatians Two Twenty" when we had first reached that level. 35 Then I heard the voice of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], saying, "This is now your daisy bread. 36 It shall never[6] be withheld from you. 37 You may eat as much and as often as you like. 38 There is no end to My Love [Chesed]. "

39 I looked up into the tree to see where the voice had come from, and I saw that it was filled with pure white eagles. 40 They had the most beautiful, penetrating eyes I have ever seen. 41 They were looking at me as if waiting for instructions. 42 One of the angels [Messengers]  said, "They will do your bidding. 43 These eagles eat snakes." 44 I said, "Go! 45 Devour the shame that has bound our brothers." 46 They opened their wings and a great wind came that lifted them into the air. 47 These eagles filled the sky with a blinding glory. 48 Even as high as we were, I could hear the sounds of terror from the enemy camp at the sight of the eagles ascending[7].

Chapter 2.11 -- The King Appears

1 The Lord [Adonay] Jesus [Yahooshua][1] Himself then appeared right in our midst. 2 He took the time to greet each one personally, congratulating us for reaching the top of the Mountain. 3 Then He said, "I must now share with you what I shared with your brothers after My ascension—the message of My kingdom. 4 The enemy's most powerful army has now been put to flight, but not destroyed. 5 Now it is time for us to march forth with the gospel [Good News] of My kingdom. 6 The eagles have been released and will go with us. 7 We will take arrows from every level, but I am your Sword, and I am your Captain. 8 It is now time for the Sword of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] to be unsheathed. "[2]

9 I then turned and saw that the entire army of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] was standing in that garden. 10 There were men, women, and children from all races and nations, each carrying their banners which moved in the wind with perfect unity. 11 I knew that nothing like this had been seen in the earth before. 12 I knew that the enemy had many more armies, and fortresses throughout the earth, but none could stand before this great army. 13 I said almost under my breath, "This must be the day of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]." 14 The whole host then answered in an awesome thunder, "The day of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] of Hosts has come.[3]"

Chapter 2.12 -- Summary

1 Months later I sat pondering this dream. 2 Alarmingly, certain events and conditions in the Church [Assembly] had seemed to parallel just what I had seen when the horde from hell had begun to march.[1] 3 I was then reminded of Abraham Lincoln. 4 The only way that he could become "the Emancipator," and preserve the Union, was to be willing to fight a Civil War. 5 He not only had to fight it, but fight with the resolution not to compromise until the victory was complete. 6 He also had to have the grace to fight the bloodiest war in our history without "demonizing" the enemy with propaganda. 7 If he had done that he might have been able to galvanize the resolve of the North much faster, and win a quicker military victory, but it would have made the reunion after the war much more difficult. 8 Because he was truly fighting to preserve the Union, he never made the men and women of the South the enemy, but rather the evil that had them in bondage.

9 A great spiritual civil war now looms before the Church [Assembly]. 10 Many will do everything that they can to avoid it. 11 This is understandable, and even noble. 12 However, compromise[2] will never maintain a lasting peace. 13 It will only make the ultimate conflict that much more difficult when it comes, and it will come.

14 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] is now preparing a leadership that will be willing to fight a spiritual civil war in order to set men free. 15 The main issue will be slavery verses freedom. 16 The secondary issue, which will be the primary issue for some, will be money. 17 Just as the American Civil War at times looked like it would destroy the entire nation, what is coming upon the Church [Assembly] will at times appear as if it will be the end of the Church [Assembly]. 18 However, just as the American nation not only survived, but went on to become the most powerful nation on earth, the same is going to happen to the Church [Assembly]. 19 The Church [Assembly] will not be destroyed, but the institutions and doctrines that have kept men in spiritual slavery will be[3].

20 Even after this, perfect justice in the Church [Assembly] will not be attained overnight. 21 There will still be struggles for women's rights[4], and to set the Church [Assembly] free from other forms of racism and exploitation. 22 These are all causes that must be confronted. 23 However, in the midst of the coming spiritual civil war, Faith [Emunah], Hope and Love [Chesed], and the kingdom of God [Yah] that they stand upon, will begin to be seen as they never have before. 24 This will begin drawing all men to the kingdom[5]. 25 God's [Yah’s] government is about to be demonstrated as greater than any human government.

And let us always remember that, with the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] "a thousand years is as a day[6]." 26 He can do in us in one day what we may think will take a thousand years[7]. 27 The work of liberation, and exaltation of the Church [Assembly], will be a work that is accomplished much quicker than we may think is humanly possible. 28 However, we are not talking about human possibilities[8].[9]

Chapter 3.10 -- Rank In The Kingdom

I was left standing in the midst of the great company of angels [Messengers]  who were ministering to the wounded on the level of "Salvation." 1 As I began to walk past these angels [Messengers] , they bowed to one knee and showed me great respect. 2 I finally asked one of them why they did this, as even the smallest was much more powerful than I was. 3 "Because of the mantle," he replied. 4 "That is the highest rank in the kingdom."

5 "This is just a plain mantle," I protested.

6 "No!" the angel [Messenger] protested. 7 "You are clothed in the grace of God [Yah]. 8 There is no greater power than that!"[1]

9 "But there are thousands[2] of us all wearing the same mantle. 10 How could it represent rank?" 11 I asked.

12 “You are the dreaded champions, the sons and daughters of the King. 13 He wore the same mantle when He walked on this earth. 14 As long as you are clothed in that, there is no power in heaven or earth that can stand before you. 15 Everyone in heaven and hell recognizes that mantle. 16 We are indeed His servants, but He abides in you, and you are clothed in His grace."

17 Somehow I knew that if I had not been wearing the mantle, and if my glorious armor had been exposed, that the angel’s [Messenger's] statement, and their behavior toward me, would have fed my pride. 18 It was simply impossible to feel prideful or arrogant while wearing such a drab, plain cloak. 19 However, my confidence in the mantle was growing fast.

Chapter 3.1 -- Part II, The Holy [Set-Apart] Mountain

1 We stood in the Garden of God [Yah] under the Tree of Life. 2 It seemed that the entire army was there, many of them kneeling before the Lord [Adonay] Jesus [Yahooshua][1]. 3 He had just given us the charge to return to the battle for the sake of our brothers who were still bound, and for the world that He Loved [Cheseded]. 4 It was both a wonderful and a terrible command. 5 It was wonderful because it came from Him. 6 It was terrible because it implied that we would have to leave His manifest presence, and the Garden that was more beautiful than any place we had ever been before. 7 To leave all of this to go into battle again seemed incomprehensible.

8 The Lord [Yahooshua] continued His exhortation: "I have given you spiritual gifts and power, and an increasing understanding of My[2] word and My kingdom, but the greatest weapon that you have been given is the Father's Love [Chesed]. 9 As long as you walk in My Father's Love [Chesed] you will never fail. 10 The fruit of this tree is the Father's Love [Chesed] which is manifested in Me. 11 This Love [Chesed] which is in Me must be your daisy bread."

12 In this setting of such beauty and glory it did not seem that the Lord [Yahooshua] was appearing in His glory. 13 In fact, His appearance was rather ordinary. 14 Even so, the grace with which He moved and spoke made Him the most attractive person I had ever seen. 15 He was beyond human definition in dignity and nobility. 16 It was easy to understand why He was everything that the Father Loves [Cheseds] and esteems. 17 He truly is full of grace and truth, to the point that it seemed that nothing but grace and truth should ever matter.

18 As I ate the fruit from the Tree of Life, the thought of every good thing I had ever known filled my soul. 19 When Jesus [Yahooshua] spoke it was the same, only magnified. 20 All I wanted to do was just stay in this place and listen to Him. 21 I remembered how I had once thought it must have been boring for those angels [Messengers]  who did nothing but worship Him continually before the throne.[3] 22 Now I knew that there was nothing more wonderful or exhilarating that we would ever do than simply worshipping Him. 23 This was what we were created for, and would surely be the best part of heaven. 24 I just could not imagine how wonderful it would be if all of the heavenly choirs were added. 25 It was hard to believe that I had struggled so much with boredom during worship services. 26 I knew that it was only because I had been almost completely out of touch with reality during those times[4].

27 I was almost overwhelmed with the desire to go back and make up those times during worship services when I had allowed my mind to wander, or had occupied myself with other things. 28 The desire to express my adoration for Him became almost insatiable. 29 I had to praise Him! 30 As I opened my mouth I was shocked by the spontaneous[5] worship that erupted from the entire army at the same time. 31 I had almost forgotten that anyone else was there, but we were all in perfect unity. 32 The glorious worship that followed could not be expressed in human language.

33 As we worshipped, a golden glow began to emanate from the Lord [Yahooshua]. 34 Then there was silver around the gold. 35 Then colors, the richness of which I have never seen with my natural eyes, enveloped us all. 36 With this glory I entered a realm of emotion that I had never experienced before. 37 Somehow I understood that this glory had been there all along, but when we focused on Him the way that we did in worship, we began to see more of His glory. 38 The more intensely we worshipped, the more glory we beheld. 39 If this was heaven, it was much, much better than I had ever dreamed.

Chapter 3.2 -- His Dwelling Place

1 I have no idea how long this worship lasted. 2 It could have been minutes or it could have been months. 3 There was just no way to measure time in that kind of glory. 4 I closed my eyes because the glory I was seeing with my heart was as great as what I was seeing with my physical eyes. 5 When I opened my eyes I was surprised to see that the Lord [Yahooshua] was not there any longer, but a troop of angels [Messengers]  was standing where He had been. 6 One of them approached me and said, "Close your eyes again." 7 When I did, I beheld the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 8 This was no small relief. 9 I knew that I just could not live without the glory now that I had experienced it.

Then the angel [Messenger] explained, "What you see with the eyes of your heart is more real than what you see with your physical eyes." 10 I had myself made this statement many times, but how little I had walked in it! 11 The angel [Messenger] continued, "It was for this reason that the Lord [Yahooshua] told His first disciples that it was better for Him to go away so that the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit could come. 12 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] dwells within you. 13 You have taught this many times, but now you must live it, for you have eaten of the Tree of Life."

14 The angel [Messenger] then began to lead me back to the gate. 15 I protested that I did not want to leave. 16 Looking surprised, the angel [Messenger] took me by the shoulders and looked me in the eyes. 17 This was when I recognized him; it was Wisdom. 18 "You never have to leave this garden. 19 This garden is in your heart because the Creator Himself is within you[1]. 20 You have desired the best part, to worship and sit in His presence for ever, and it will never be taken from you. 21 But you must take it from here to where it is needed most. "

22 I knew he was right. 23 I then looked past him to the Tree of Life. 24 I had a compulsion to grab all of the fruit that I could before leaving. 25 Knowing my thoughts, Wisdom gently shook me. 26 "No. 27 Even this fruit, gathered in fear, would go bad. 28 This fruit and this tree are within you because He [Yah] is in you. 29 You must believe. "

30 I closed my eyes and tried to see the Lord [Yahooshua] again but couldn't. 31 When I opened my eyes, Wisdom was still staring at me. 32 With great patience he continued, "You have tasted of the heavenly realm, and no one ever wants to go back to the battle once they do. 33 No one ever wants to leave the manifest presence of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 34 When the Apostle [Emissary] Paul [Shaul] came here he struggled for the rest of his life as to whether he should stay and labor for the sake of the Church [Assembly], or return here to enter into His inheritance. 35 His inheritance was magnified the longer he stayed and served on earth. 36 Now that you have the heart of a true worshiper you will always want to be here, but you can when you enter into true worship. 37 The more focused you are on Him, the more glory you will see, regardless of where you are. "

38 Wisdom's words had finally calmed me. 39 Again I closed my eyes just to thank the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] for this wonderful experience, and the life He had given to me. 40 As I did, I started to see His glory again, and all of the emotion of the previous worship experience flooded my soul. 41 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]'s words to me were so loud and clear that I was sure they were audible; "I will never leave or forsake you. "

42 "Lord [Adonay], forgive my unbelief," I responded. 43 "Please help me never to leave or forsake you." 44 This was both a wonderful and trying time. 45 Here the "real world" was not real, and the spiritual realm was so much more real that I just could not imagine going back to the other. 46 I was gripped both with wonder and a terrible fear that I might wake up at any moment and finding it was all just a dream.

47 Wisdom understood what was going on inside of me. 48 "You are dreaming,” he said. 49 "But this dream is more real than what you think of as real. 50 The Father gave men dreams to help them see the door to His dwelling place. 51 He will only dwell in men's hearts, and dreams can be a door to your heart, which will lead you to Him. 52 That is why His angels [Messengers]  so often appear to men in their dreams. 53 In dreams they can bypass the fallen mind of man and go straight to his heart."

54 As I opened my eyes, Wisdom was still gripping my shoulders. 55 "I am the primary gift that has been given to you or your work, " he said. 56 "I will show you the way, and I will keep you on it, but only Love [Chesed] will keep you Faithful [Emunahful]. 57 The fear of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] is the beginning of wisdom, but the highest wisdom is to Love [Chesed] Him. "

58 Then Wisdom released me and started to walk toward the gate. 59 I followed with ambivalence. 60 I remembered the exhilaration of the battle and the climb up the Mountain, and it was compelling, but there was no comparison to the presence of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] and the worship I had just experienced. 61 Leaving this would be the greatest sacrifice I had ever made. 62 Then I remembered how it was all inside of me and was amazed that I could forget this so quickly. 63 It was like there was a great battle raging within me, between what I saw with my physical eyes and what I saw with my heart.

64 I moved forward so that I was walking beside Wisdom, and asked, "I have prayed for twenty-five years[2] to be caught up into the third heaven like the Apostle [Emissary] Paul [Shaul]. 65 Is this the third heaven?"

"This is part of it, " he replied, "but there is much more."

"Will I be allowed to see more?" 66 I asked.

67 "You will see much more. 68 I am taking you to see more now, " he replied.

69 I started thinking of the book of Revelation. 70 "Was John's revelation part of the third heaven?" 71 I asked.

72  "Part of John's revelation was from the third heaven, but most of it was from the second heaven. 73 The first heaven was before the fall of man. 74 The second heaven is the spiritual realm during the reign of evil upon the earth. 75 The third heaven is when the Love [Chesed] and domain of the Father will again prevail over the earth through the King. [3]"

"What was the first heaven like?" 76 I inquired, strangely feeling a cold chill as I asked.

77 "It is wisdom not to be concerned about that now," Wisdom responded with increased seriousness as my question seemed to jolt him. 78 “Wisdom is to seek to know the third heaven just as you have. 79 There is much more to know about the third heaven than you can know in this Life, and it is the third heaven, the kingdom, that you must preach in this Iife[4]. 80 In the ages to come you will be told about the first heaven, but it is not profitable for you to know about it now. "

81 I resolved to remember the cold chill I had just felt, and Wisdom nodded, which I knew to be an affirmation of that thought. 82 "What a great companion you are[5]," I had to say as I realized the valuable gift that this angel [Messenger][6] was. 83 “you really will keep me on the right path."

84 "I will indeed, " he replied.

85 I was sure I felt Love [Chesed] coming from this angel [Messenger], which was unique, since I had never felt this from other angels [Messengers] . 86 They usually showed their concern more out of duty than Love [Chesed]. 87 Wisdom responded to my thoughts as if I had spoken them out loud.

88 "It is wisdom to Love [Chesed] and I could not be wisdom if did not Love [Chesed] you. 89 It is also wisdom to behold the kindness and the severity of God [Yah]. 90 It is wisdom to Love [Chesed] Him and to fear Him. 91 You are in deception if you do otherwise. 92 This is the next lesson that you must learn, " he said with unmistakable earnest.

93 "I do know that, and have taught it many times," I responded, feeling for the first time that maybe Wisdom did not fully know me.

94 "I have been your companion for a very long time, and I know your teachings, "Wisdom replied. 95 "Now you are about to learn what some of your own teachings mean. 96 As you have said many times, 'It is not by believing in your mind, but in your heart that results in righteousness.” 97 I apologized, feeling a bit ashamed at having questioned Wisdom. 98 He graciously accepted my apology. 99 It was then that I realized I had been questioning and challenging him most of my life, and often to my injury.

Chapter 3.3 -- The Other Half of Love [Chesed]

1 "There are times to adore the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], " Wisdom continued, "and there are times to honor Him with the greatest fear and respect, just as there is a time to plant, and a time to reap. 2 It is wisdom to know the time for each. 3 True wisdom knows the times and seasons of God [Yah]. 4 I brought you here because it was time to worship the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] in the glory of His Love [Chesed]. 5 This is what you needed the most after such a battle. 6 I am now taking you to another place because it is time for you to worship Him in the fear of His judgment[1]. 7 Until you know both there is a danger that we can be separated from each other. "

"Do you mean that if I had stayed back there in that glorious worship I would have lost you?" 8 I asked in disbelief.

9 "Yes. 10 I would have always visited with you when I could, but we would have rarely crossed paths. 11 It is hard to leave such glory and peace, but that is not the whole revelation of the King. 12 He is both a Lion and a Lamb. 13 To the spiritual children He is the Lamb. 14 To the maturing He is the Lion. 15 To the fully mature He is both the Lion and the Lamb[2]. 16 Again, I know you understand this, but you have known it in your mind. 17 Soon you will know it in your heart, for you are about to experience the judgment seat of Christ [the Anointing of the Spirit of Yah]. "

Chapter 3.4 -- The Return To The Battle

1 Before leaving the gates to the Garden, I asked Wisdom if I could just sit for a while to ponder all that I had just experienced. 2 "Yes, you should do this, " he replied, "but I have a better place for you to do it.”

3 I followed Wisdom out of the gates and we began to go down the Mountain. 4 To my surprise the battle was still going on, but not as intensely as it was when we ascended. 5 There were still arrows of accusation and slander flying about on the lower levels, but most of the enemy horde that was left was furiously attacking the great white eagles. 6 The eagles were easily prevailing.

7 We kept descending until we were almost at the bottom. 8 Just above the levels of “Salvation" and "Sanctification" was the level "Thanksgiving and Praise.[1]" 9 I remembered this level very well because one of the greatest attacks of the enemy came when I had first tried to reach it.[2] 10 Once we got here the rest of the climb was much easier, and when an arrow penetrated our armor, healing came much faster.

11 As soon as my enemies spotted me on this level (they could not see Wisdom), a shower of arrows began to rain down on me. 12 I knocked them down with my shield so easily they quit shooting. 13 Their arrows were now almost gone and they could not afford to waste them.[3]

14 The soldiers who were still fighting from this level looked at me in astonishment with a deference that made me very uncomfortable. 15 It was then that I first noticed that the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] was emanating from my armor and shield. 16 I told them to climb to the top of the Mountain without stopping and they, too, would see the Lord [Yahooshua]. 17 As soon as they agreed to go they saw Wisdom. 18 They started to fall down to worship him, but he restrained them, and sent them on their way.

Chapter 3.5 -- The Faithful [Emunahful]

1 I was filled with Love [Chesed] for these soldiers, many of whom were women and children[1]. 2 Their armor was a mess, and they were covered in blood, but they had not given up. 3 In fact, they were still cheerful and encouraged. 4 I told them that they were deserving of more honor than I was, because they had borne the greatest burden of the battle, and had held their ground.

5 They seemed not to believe me, but appreciated that I would say it. 6 However, I really felt that it was true.

7 Every level on the Mountain had to be occupied or the vultures that were left would come and desecrate it with vomit and excrement until it was difficult to stand on. 8 Most of the ledges were occupied by soldiers who I recognized to be from different denominations or movements which emphasized the truth of the level they were defending[2]. 9 I was embarrassed by the attitude I had maintained toward some of these groups. 10 I had considered them out of touch and backslidden at best[3], but here they were fighting Faithfully [Emunahfully] against a terrible onslaught of the enemy. 11 Their defense of these positions had probably enabled me to keep climbing as I had.

12 Some of these levels were situated so that there was a view of a good part of the Mountain and the battlefield, but some were so isolated that the soldiers on them could see only their own position. 13 These seemed unaware of the rest of the battle raging, or the rest of the army that was also fighting the battle. 14 These were so wounded from the slander and accusations that they would resist anyone who came down to them from a higher level to encourage them to climb higher. 15 However, when some began to come down from the top reflecting the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], they listened, most of them with great joy, and soon began to climb themselves with courage and resolve[4]. 16 As I beheld all of this, Wisdom did not say much, but he seemed very interested in my reactions.

Chapter 3.6 -- Reality Discovered

1 I watched as many soldiers who had been to the top began descending to all of the levels to relieve those who had been taking their stand on those truths. 2 As they did, each level began to shine with the glory they carried. 3 Soon the whole Mountain was beginning to shine with a glory that was blinding to the vultures and demons that were left. 4 After a time there was so much glory on the Mountain that it began to have the same feel as the Garden.

5 I started thanking and praising the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] and immediately I was in His presence again. 6 It was hard to contain the emotions and glory that I felt when I did this. 7 The experience became so intense that I stopped. 8 Wisdom was standing beside me. 9 Putting his hand on my shoulder he said, "You enter His gates with thanksgiving, His courts with praise. "

10 "But that was so real! 11 I felt like I was there again," I exclaimed.

12 "You were there, " replied Wisdom. 13 "It has not gotten more real, but you have. 14 Just as the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] told the thief on the Cross [Stake], 'Today you will be with Me in Paradise,' you can enter Paradise at any time. 15 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], His Paradise, and this Mountain, are all abiding in you, because He is in you. 16 What were but foretastes before, are now a reality to you because you have climbed the Mountain. 17 The reason that you can see me and others cannot, is not because I have entered your realm, but because you have entered mine. 18 This is the reality that the prophets [Spokesmen and Spokeswomen] knew which gave them great boldness even when they stood alone against armies. 19 They saw the heavenly host that was for them, not just the earthly one arrayed against them.”

Chapter 3.7 -- The Deadly Trap

1 I then looked out over the carnage below, and the slowly retreating demonic army. 2 Behind me more of the glorious warriors were constantly taking their places on the Mountain. 3 I knew that we were now strong enough to attack and destroy what was left of this enemy horde[1]. 4 "Not yet” said Wisdom. 5 "Look over there.” 6 I looked in the direction in which he was pointing, but had to shield my eyes from the glory emanating from my own armor to see anything. 7 Then I caught a glimpse of some movement in a small valley.

8 I could not make out what I was seeing because the glory shining from my armor made it difficult to see into the darkness. 9 I asked Wisdom if there was something that I could cover my armor with so I could see it. 10 He then gave me a very plain mantel to put on. 11 "What is this?" 12 I inquired, a little insulted by its drabness. 13 "Humility," said Wisdom. 14 "You will not be able to see very well without it.” 15 Reluctantly I put it on[2] and immediately I saw many things that I could not see before. 16 I looked toward the valley and the movement I had seen. 17 To my astonishment there was an entire division of the enemy horde that was waiting to ambush anyone who ventured from the Mountain.

"What army is that?" 18 I asked, "and how did they escape the battle intact?"

19  "That is Pride, " explained Wisdom. 20 "That is the hardest enemy to see after you have been in the glory. 21 Those who refuse to put on this cloak will suffer much at the hands of that most devious enemy. "

22 As I looked back at the Mountain I saw many of the glorious warriors crossing the plain to attack the remnant of the enemy horde. 23 None of them were wearing the cloaks of humility and they had not seen the enemy that was ready to attack them from their rear. 24 I started to run out to stop them, but Wisdom restrained me. 25 "You cannot stop this,” he said. 26 "Only the soldiers who wear this cloak will recognize your authority. 27 Come with me. 28 There is something else that you must see before you can help lead in the great battle that is to come."

Chapter 3.8 -- The Foundation Of Glory

1 Wisdom led me down the Mountain to the very lowest level, which was named "Salvation." "You think that this is the lowest level,” declared Wisdom, "but this is the foundation of the whole Mountain. 2 In any Journey, the first step is the most important, and it is usually the most difficult. 3 Without 'Salvation' there would be no Mountain.[1]"

4 I was appalled by the carnage on this level. 5 Every soldier was very badly wounded, but none of them were dead. 6 Multitudes were barely clinging to the edge. 7 Many seemed ready to fall off, but none did[2]. 8 Angels [Messenger] were everywhere ministering to the soldiers with such great joy that I had to ask, "Why are they so happy?"

9 "These angels [Messengers]  have beheld the courage that it took for these to hold on. 10 They may not have gone any further, but neither did they give up. 11 They will soon be healed, and then they will behold the glory of the rest of the Mountain, and they will begin to climb. 12 These will be great warriors for the battle to come. "

13 "But wouldn't they have been better off to climb the Mountain with the rest of us?" I protested, seeing their present condition.

14 "It would have been better for them, but not for you. 15 By staying here they made it easier for you to climb by keeping most of your enemies occupied. 16 Very few from the higher levels ever reached out to help others come to the Mountain, but these did. 17 Even when these were barely clinging to the Mountain themselves, they would reach out to pull others up. 18 In fact, most of the mighty warriors were led to the Mountain by these faithful ones. 19 These are no less heroes than those who made it to the top. 20 They brought great joy to heaven by leading others to Salvation. 21 It was for this reason that all the angels [Messengers]  in heaven wanted to come to minister to them, but only the most honored were permitted. "

22 Again I felt shame for my previous attitude toward these great saints. 23 Many of us had scorned them as we climbed to the higher levels. 24 They had made many mistakes during the battle, but they had also displayed more of the Shepherd's heart than the rest of us. 25 The Lord [Yahoooshua] would leave the ninety-nine to go after the one who was lost. 26 These had stayed in the place where they could still reach the lost, and they paid a dear price for it. 27 I, too, wanted to help but did not know where to start.

28 Wisdom then said, "It is right for you to want to help, but you will help most by going on to what you have been called to do. 29 These will all be healed and will climb the Mountain. 30 They can now climb faster because of you and the others who went before them, both destroying the enemy, and marking the way. 31 They will join you again in the battle. 32 These are fearless ones who will never retreat before the enemy.[3] "

Chapter 3.9 -- The Power Of Pride

1 I was pondering how I was learning as much by descending the Mountain as I had by climbing it when the noise from the battlefield drew my attention. 2 By now there were thousands of the mighty warriors who had Crossed the plain to attack the remnant of the enemy horde. 3 The enemy was fleeing in all directions, except for the one division, Pride. 4 Completely undetected, it had marched right up to the rear of the advancing warriors, and was about to release a hail of arrows. 5 It was then that I noticed the mighty warriors had no armor on their backsides. 6 They were totally exposed and vulnerable to what was about to hit them.

7 Wisdom then remarked, "You have taught that there was no armor for the backside, which meant that you were vulnerable if you ran from the enemy. 8 However, you never saw how advancing in pride also made you vulnerable[1]. "

9 I could only nod in acknowledgment. 10 It was too late to do anything, and it was almost unbearable to watch, but Wisdom said that I must. 11 I knew that the kingdom of God [Yah] was about to suffer a major defeat. 12 I had felt sorrow before, but I had never felt this kind of sorrow.

13 To my amazement, when the arrows of pride struck the warriors they did not even notice. 14 However, the enemy kept shooting. 15 The warriors were bleeding and getting weaker fast, but they would not acknowledge it. 16 Soon they were too weak to hold up their shields and swords; they cast them down, declaring that they no longer needed them. 17 They started taking off their armor, saying it was not needed anymore either.

18 Then another enemy division appeared and moved up swiftly. 19 It was called Strong Delusion[2]. 20 Its members released a hail of arrows and they all seemed to hit their mark. 21 Just a few of the demons of delusion, who were all small and seemingly weak, led away this once great army of glorious warriors. 22 They were taken to different prison camps, each named after a different doctrine of demons. 23 I was astounded at how this great company of the righteous had been so easily defeated, and they still did not even know what had hit them.

24 I blurted out. 25 “How could those who were so strong, who have been all the way to the top of the Mountain, who have seen the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] as they have, be so vulnerable?"

26 "Pride is the hardest enemy to see, and it always sneaks up behind you, " Wisdom lamented. 27 "In some ways, those who have been to the greatest heights are in the greatest danger of falling. 28 You must always remember that in this life you can fall at any time from any level."[3]

29 "Take heed when you think you stand, lest you fall," I replied. 30 "How awesome these Scriptures [writings] seem to me now."

31 "When you think you are the least vulnerable to falling is in fact when you are the most vulnerable. 32 Most men fall immediately after a great victory,[4] " Wisdom lamented.

"How can we keep from being attacked like this?" 33 I asked.

34 "Stay close to me, inquire of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] before making major decisions, and keep that mantle on. 36 Then the enemy will not be able to easily blind side you as he did those. "

37 I looked at my mantle. 38 It looked so plain and insignificant. 39 I felt that it made me look more like a homeless person than a warrior. 40 Wisdom responded as if I had been speaking out loud.

41 "The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] is closer to the homeless than to kings. 42 You only have true strength to the degree that you walk in the grace of God [Yah], and 'He gives His grace to the humble.[5]' No evil weapon can penetrate this mantle, because nothing can overpower His grace. 43 As long as you wear this mantle you are safe from this kind of attack. "

44 I then started to look up to see how many warriors were still on the Mountain. 45 I was shocked to see how few there were. 46 I noticed, however, that they all had on the same mantle of humility. 47 "How did that happen?" 48 I inquired.

49  "When they saw the battle you just witnessed, they all came to me for help, and I gave them their mantles, " Wisdom replied.

"But I thought you were with me that whole time?"

50 "I am with all who go forth to do the will of My Father, " Wisdom answered.

“You're the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua]![6]" 51 I cried.

52 "Yes, " He answered. 53 "I told you that I would never leave you or forsake you. 54 I am with all of My warriors just as I am with you. 55 I will be to you whatever you need to accomplish My will, and you have needed wisdom.” 56 Then He vanished.

Chapter 3.10 -- Rank In The Kingdom

I was left standing in the midst of the great company of angels [Messengers]  who were ministering to the wounded on the level of "Salvation." 1 As I began to walk past these angels [Messengers] , they bowed to one knee and showed me great respect. 2 I finally asked one of them why they did this, as even the smallest was much more powerful than I was. 3 "Because of the mantle," he replied. 4 "That is the highest rank in the kingdom."

5 "This is just a plain mantle," I protested.

6 "No!" the angel [Messenger] protested. 7 "You are clothed in the grace of God [Yah]. 8 There is no greater power than that!"[1]

9 "But there are thousands[2] of us all wearing the same mantle. 10 How could it represent rank?" 11 I asked.

12 “You are the dreaded champions, the sons and daughters of the King. 13 He wore the same mantle when He walked on this earth. 14 As long as you are clothed in that, there is no power in heaven or earth that can stand before you. 15 Everyone in heaven and hell recognizes that mantle. 16 We are indeed His servants, but He abides in you, and you are clothed in His grace."

17 Somehow I knew that if I had not been wearing the mantle, and if my glorious armor had been exposed, that the angel’s [Messenger's] statement, and their behavior toward me, would have fed my pride. 18 It was simply impossible to feel prideful or arrogant while wearing such a drab, plain cloak. 19 However, my confidence in the mantle was growing fast.

Chapter 4.1 -- Part III, The Return of the Eagles

"Did you not see the battle that just took place?" 1 I asked with as much irritation as I dared to express. 2 "Couldn't you have helped those warriors that were just taken captive?"

3 “Yes. 4 We saw it all, and we could have helped if they had wanted our help[1]. 5 We would have helped them by holding them back, telling them to sit and be still. 6 But we can only fight in the battles that the Father commands, and we can only help those who believe in us. 7 Only those who receive us as who we are, the prophets [Spokesmen], can receive the prophet’s [Spokesman's] reward, or the benefit of our services. 8 Those who were ambushed did not yet have the mantle that you are wearing, and those who do not have that mantle cannot understand who we are. 9 We all need one another, including these here who are still wounded, and many others who you do not yet know."

10 On the horizon I saw a great white cloud approaching. 11 Hope rose in me just by seeing it. 12 Soon it had filled the atmosphere with hope just as the sun rising chases away the darkness of night. 13 As it grew closer I recognized the great white eagles that had flown from the Tree of Life. 14 They began landing on the Mountain, taking their place on every level beside the companies of warriors.[2]

15 I carefully approached the eagle who had landed near me because his presence was so awesome. 16 When he looked at me with his penetrating eyes, I knew I could hide nothing from him. 17 His eyes were so fierce and resolute that I trembled as chills ran through me just from looking at them. 18 Before I could even ask, he answered me.

19 “You want to know who we are. 20 We are the hidden prophets [Spokesmen and Spokeswomen] who have been kept for this hour. 21 We are the eyes of those who have been given the divinely powerful weapons. 22 We have been shown all that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] is doing, and all that the enemy is planning against you[3]. 23 We have scoured the earth and together we know all that needs to be known for the battle."

Chapter 4.2 -- The Heart Of The Eagle

1 As I talked to the eagle I started to think like him. 2 After this short discussion I could see into the eagle's heart and I could know him like he knew me. 3 The eagle recognized this.

4 "You have some of our gifts," the eagle noted, "though they are not very well developed. 5 You have not used them much. 6 I am here to awaken these gifts in you, and many others like you, and I will teach you how to use them. 7 In this way our communication will be sure[1]. 8 It must be sure or we will all suffer many unnecessary losses, not to mention missing many great opportunities for victory."

"Where did you just come from?" 9 I asked.

10 "We eat snakes," the eagle replied. 11 "The enemy is bread for us. 12 Our sustenance comes from doing the Father's will, which is to destroy the works of the devil. 13 Every snake that we eat helps to increase our vision. 14 Every stronghold of the enemy that we tear down strengthens us so we can soar higher and stay in the air longer. 15 We have just come from a feast, devouring the serpents of Shame who have bound many of your brothers and sisters. 16 They will be here soon. 17 They are coming with the eagles we left behind to help them find the way, and to protect them from the enemy's counterattacks."

18 These eagles were very sure of themselves, but not cocky. 19 They knew who they were, and what they were called to do. 20 They also knew us and they knew the future [Yah’s plans][2]. 21 Their confidence was reassuring to me, but even more so to the wounded that were still lying all around us. 22 Those who had recently been too weak to talk, were actually sitting up listening to my conversation with the eagle. 23 They looked at him like lost children would look to their parents who had just found them.

Chapter 4.3 -- The Wind of the Spirit

1 When the eagle looked upon the wounded his countenance changed as well. 2 In place of the fierce resolution I had stood before, toward the wounded he was like a soft, compassionate old grandfather. 3 The eagle opened his wings and began to gently flap them, stirring up a cool refreshing breeze that flowed over the wounded. 4 It was unlike any other breeze I had ever felt before. 5 With each breath I was gaining strength and clarity of mind[1]. 6 Soon the wounded were standing and worshipping God [Yah] with a sincerity that brought tears to my eyes.

7 Again I felt a profound shame at having scorned those who stayed on this level. 8 They had seemed so weak and foolish to those of us who were ascending the Mountain, but they had endured much more than we had and they remained Faithful [Emet[2]]. 9 God [Yah] had kept them and they Loved [Cheseded] Him with a great Love [Chesed].

10 I looked up at the Mountain. 11 All of the eagles were gently flapping their wings. 12 Everyone on the Mountain was being refreshed by the breeze they were stirring up, and they all began to worship the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 13 At first there was some discord between the worship that was coming from the different levels, but after a time everyone on every level was singing in perfect harmony[3].

14 Never on earth had I heard anything that beautiful. 15 I never wanted it to end. 16 Soon I recognized it as the same worship that we had known in the Garden, but now it sounded even more rich and full. 17 I knew that it was because we were worshipping in the very presence of our enemies[4], in the midst of such darkness and evil that surrounding/he Mountain, that it seemed so much more beautiful.

18 I do not know how long this worship lasted, but eventually the eagles stopped flapping their wings and it stopped. 19 "Why did you stop?" 20 I asked the eagle that I had been talking with.

21 "Because they are now whole," he replied, indicating the wounded who were now all standing and who appeared to be in perfect condition. 22 "True worship can heal any wound," he added.

23 "Please do it again," I begged.

24 "We will do this many times, but it is not for us to decide when. 25 The breeze that you felt was the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit. 26 He directs us; we do not direct Him[5]. 27 He has healed the wounded and has begun to bring about the unity that is required for the battles ahead. 28 True worship also pours the precious oil upon the Head, Jesus [Yahooshua], which then flows down over the entire body, making us one with Him and with each other. 29 No one who comes into union with Him will remain wounded or unclean. 30 His blood is pure life, and it flows when we are joined to Him. 31 When we are joined to Him we are also joined to the rest of the body, so that His blood flows through all. 32 Is that not how you heal a wound to your body, by closing the wound so that the blood can flow to the wounded member to bring regeneration? 33 When a part of His body is wounded, we must join in unity[6] with that part until it is fully restored. 34 We are all one."

35 In the euphoria still left from the worship, this brief teaching seemed almost esoteric, yet I knew that it was very basic. 36 When the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit moved every word seemed glorious, regardless of how elementary it was. 37 I was so filled with Love [Chesed] that I wanted to hug everyone, including the fierce old eagles.

38 Then, like a jolt, I remembered the mighty warriors who had just been captured. 39 The eagle sensed this but did not say anything. 40 He just watched me intently. 41 Finally, I spoke up, "Can we recover those who were just lost?"

Chapter 4.4 -- The Heart of the King

1 "Yes. 2 It is right for you to feel what you do," the eagle finally said. 3 "We are not complete, and our worship is not complete, until the whole body is restored[1]. 4 Even in the most glorious worship, even in the very presence of the King, we will all feel this emptiness until all are one, because our King also feels it. 5 We all grieve for our brothers in bondage, but we grieve even more for the heart of our King. 6 Though you Love [Chesed] all of your children, you would be grieved for the one that was sick or wounded. 7 He, too, Loves [Cheseds] all of His children, but the wounded and oppressed have most of His attention now.

8 For His sake we must not quit until all have been recovered. 9 As long as any are wounded, He is wounded."

Chapter 4.5 -- Faith [Emunah] to Move the Mountain

1 Sitting down by the eagle, I pondered his words. 2 Finally I asked, "I know that Wisdom now speaks to me through you, because I hear His voice when you speak. 3 I was so sure of myself before that last battle, but I was almost carried away with the same presumption that they were carried away with, and could very easily have been captured with them if Wisdom had not stopped me. 4 I was motivated more by hatred for the enemy than by the desire to set my brothers free. 5 Since first coming to this Mountain, and fighting in the great battle, I now think that most of the right things I did, I did for the wrong reasons, and many of the wrong things I did, I had good motives for[1]. 6 The more I learn, the more unsure of myself I feel."

7 "You must have been with Wisdom a long time," the eagle responded.

8 "He was with me a long time before I began to recognize Him, but I am afraid that most of that time I was resisting Him[2]. 9 Somehow I now know that I am still lacking something very important, something that I must have before I go into battle again, but I do not know what it is."

10 The great eagle's eyes became even more penetrating as he responded, "You also know the voice of Wisdom when He speaks to you in your own heart. 11 You are learning well because you have the mantle. 12 What you are feeling now is the true Faith [Emunah]."

"Faith [Emunah]?" 13 I shot back. 14 "I'm talking about serious doubts!"

15 "You are wise to doubt yourself. 16 But true Faith [Emunah] depends on God [Yah], not yourself, and not your Faith [Emunah].[3] 17 You are close to the kind of Faith [Emunah] that can move this Mountain, and move it we must. 18 It is time to carry it to places where it has not traveled before. 19 However, you are right. 20 You are still lacking something very important. 21 You must yet have a revelation. 22 Even though you have climbed to the top of the Mountain, and received from every truth along the way, and even though you have stood in the Garden of God [Yah], tasted of His unconditional Love [Chesed], and have seen His Son many times now, you still understand only a part of the whole counsel of God [Yah], and that only superficially."

23 I knew that this was so true that it was actually comforting to hear it. 24 "I have judged so many people and so many situations wrongly. 25 Wisdom has saved my life many times now, but the voice of Wisdom is still a very small voice within me, and the clamor of my own thoughts and feelings are still far too loud. 26 I hear Wisdom speaking through you much louder than I hear Him in my own heart, so I know I must stay very close to you."

27 "We are here because you need us," the eagle replied. 28 "We are also here because we need you. 29 You have been given gifts that I do not have, and I have been given gifts that you do not have[4]. 30 You have experienced things that I have not experienced, and I have experienced things that you have not. 31 The eagles have been given to you until the end, and you have been given to us. 32 I will be very close to you for a time, an then you must receive other eagles in my place. 33 Every eagle is different. 34 It is together, not individually, that we have been given to know the secrets of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]."[5]

Chapter 4.6 -- The Doors Of Truth

1 The eagle then rose up from the rock on which he had perched, and he soared over to the edge of the level on which we stood. 2 "Come," he said. 3 As I approached him I saw steps that led down to the very base of the Mountain, and a small door.

"Why have I not seen this before?" 4 I asked.

5 "When you first came to the Mountain you did not stay on this level long enough to look around," he answered.

6 "How did you know that? 7 Were you here when I first came to the Mountain?"

8 "I would have known if I had not been here, because all who miss this door do so for the same reason, but in fact I was here," he responded. 9 "I was one of the soldiers you so quickly passed on your way up the Mountain."

10 It was then that I recognized the eagle as a man whom I had met soon after my conversion, whom I had actually had a few conversations with. 11 He continued, "I wanted badly to follow you then. 12 I had been on this level for so long that I needed a change. 13 I just could not leave all of the lost souls that I was still trying to lead here. 14 When I finally committed myself to doing the Lord’s [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]'s will, whether it was to stay or go, Wisdom appeared to me and showed me this door. 15 He said it was a shortcut to the top. 16 That is how I got to the top before you did. 17 There I was changed into an eagle."

18 I then remembered that I had seen doors like this on a couple of the levels. 19 I had even peeked into one of them and remember how amazed I had been at what I saw. 20 I did not venture very far into it because I was so focused on the battle and on trying to get to the top of the Mountain. 21 "Could I have entered any of those doors and gone right to the top?" 22 I asked.

23 "It is not quite that easy," the eagle remarked, seeming a little irritated. 24 "In every door there are passageways, one of which leads to the top." 25 Anticipating my next question, he continued. 26 "The other ones lead to the other levels on the Mountain. 27 The Father designed each passageway so that everyone would choose that which his level of maturity dictated.[1]"

28 "Incredible! 29 How did He do that?" 30 I thought to myself, but the eagle heard my thoughts.

31 "It was very simple," continued the eagle as if I had spoken my thoughts out loud. 32 "Spiritual maturity is always determined by our willingness to sacrifice our own desires for the interests of the kingdom, or for the sake of others.[2] 33 The door that requires the most sacrifice to enter will always take us to the highest level."

34 I was trying to remember all that the eagle was saying to me. 35 I knew that I must enter the door before me, and that would be wise for me to learn all that I could from someone who had preceded me and had obviously chosen the correct door to the top.

36 "I did not go directly to the top, and I haven't met anyone who has," the eagle continued. 37 "But I went there much faster than most because I had learned so much about self- sacrifice while fighting here on the level of Salvation. [3]38 I have shown you this door because you wear the mantle and would have found it anyway, but the time is short and I am here to help you mature quickly."

39 "There are doors on every level, and every one leads to treasures that are beyond your comprehension," he continued. 40 "They cannot be acquired physically, but every treasure that you hold in your hands you will be able to carry in your heart. 41 Your heart is meant to be the treasure house of God [Yah]. 42 By the time you reach the top again, your heart will contain treasures more valuable than all of the treasures of the earth. 43 They will never be taken from you, but they are yours for eternity. 44 Go quickly. 45 The storm clouds are now gathering, and another great battle is looming."[4]

“Will you go with me?" 46 I pleaded.

47 "No," he responded. 48 "This is where I belong now. 49 I must help these who were wounded. 50 But I will see you here again. 51 You will meet many of my brother and sister eagles before you return, and they will be able to help you better than I at the place where you meet them."

Chapter 4.7 -- The Treasures of Heaven

1 I already Loved [Cheseded] the eagle so much that I could hardly stand to leave him. 2 I was glad to know I would see him again. 3 Now the door was drawing me like a magnet. 4 I opened it and entered.

5 The glory that I beheld was so stunning that I immediately fell to my knees[1]. 6 The gold, silver and precious stones were far more beautiful than can be described. 7 They actually rivaled the glory of the Tree of Life. 8 The room was so large that it seemed to be without end. 9 The floor was silver, the pillars, gold, and the ceiling was a single pure diamond that reflected every color I had ever known and many that I had not known. 10 Angels [Messengers]  without number were all around, dressed in different robes and uniforms that were of no earthly origin.

11 As I began to walk through the room, the angels [Messengers]  all bowed in salute. 12 One stepped forward and welcomed me by name. 13 He explained that I could go anywhere and see anything that I wanted in the room. 14 Nothing was withheld from those who came through the door.

15 I was so overwhelmed by the beauty that I could not even speak. 16 I finally remarked that this was even more beautiful than the Garden had been. 17 Surprised, the angel [Messenger] responded, "This is the Garden! 18 This is one of the rooms in your Father's house. 19 We are your servants."

20 As I walked, a great company of angels [Messengers]  followed me. 21 I turned and asked the leader why they were following "Because of the mantle," he said. 22 “We have been given to you, to serve you here and in the battle to come."[2]

23 I did not know what to do with the angels [Messengers]  so I just continued walking. 24 I was attracted to a large blue stone that appeared to have the sun and clouds inside of it. 25 When I touched it the same feelings flooded over me as when I had eaten the fruit of the Tree of Life. 26 I felt energy, unearthly mental clarity, and Love [Chesed] for everyone and everything being magnified. 27 I started to behold the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 28 The longer I touched the stone the more the glory increased. 29 I never wanted to take my hand off of the stone, but the glory became so intense that finally I had to draw away.

30 Then my eyes fell on a beautiful green stone. 31 “What does that one have in it?" 32 I asked the angel [Messenger] standing nearby.

33 "All of these stones are the treasures of salvation. 34 You are now touching the heavenly realm, and that one is the restoration of life," he continued.

35 As I touched the green stone I began to see the earth in rich and spectacular colors. 36 They grew in richness the longer I had my hand on the stone, and my Love [Chesed] for all that I saw also grew. 37 Then I began to see a harmony between all living things on a level that I had never seen before. 38 Then I began to see the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] in the creation. 39 It began to grow until again I had to step away because of the intensity.

40 I realized that I had no idea how long I had been there. 41 I did know that my comprehension of God [Yah] and His universe had grown substantially by just touching these two stones, and there were many, many more to touch. 42 There was more in that one room than a person could have absorbed in a whole lifetime. 43 "How many more rooms are there?" 44 I asked the angel [Messenger].

"There are rooms like this on every level of the Mountain that you climbed."

"How can one ever experience all that is in just one of these rooms, much less all of them?" 45 I asked.

46 "You have forever to do this. 47 The treasures contained in the most basic truths of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] Jesus [Yah not Yahooshua] are enough to last for more lifetimes than you can measure. 48 No man can know all that there is to know about any of them in just one life, but you must take what you need and keep proceeding toward your destiny."[3]

49 I started thinking about the impending battle again, and the warriors who had been captured. 50 It was not a pleasant thought in such a glorious place, but I knew I would have forever to come back to this room; I had only a short time to find my way back to the top of the Mountain, and then back to the battlefront again.

51 I turned back to the angel [Messenger]. 52 "You must help me find the door that leads to the top."

53 The angel [Messenger] looked perplexed. 54 "We are your servants," he responded, "but you must lead us. 55 This whole Mountain is a mystery to us. 56 We all desired to look into this great mystery, but after we leave this room of which we have come to know just a little, we will be learning even more than you."

"Do you know where all of the doors are?" 57 I asked. 58 "Yes. 59 But we do not know where they lead. 60 There are some that look very inviting, and some that are plain, and some that are actually repulsive. 61 One is even terrible."

"In this place there are doors that are repulsive?" 62 I asked in disbelief. 63 "And one that is terrible? 64 How can that be?"

65 "We do not know, but I can show it to you," he responded.

66 "Please do," I said.

67 We walked for quite a while, passing treasures of unspeakable glory, all of which were difficult to bypass. 68 There were also many doors, with different biblical truths over each one. 69 When the angel [Messenger] had called them "inviting" I felt that he had quite understated their appeal. 70 I badly wanted to go through each one, but my curiosity about the "terrible door" kept me moving.

71 Then I saw it. 72 "Terrible" had also been an understatement. 73 Fear gripped me until I thought that it would take my breath away.

Chapter 4.8 -- Grace and Truth

1 I turned away from that door and retreated fast. 2 There was a beautiful red stone nearby, which I almost lunged at to lay my hands on it. 3 Immediately I was in the Garden of Gethsemane beholding the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] in prayer. 4 The agony I beheld was even more terrible than the door I had just seen. 5 Shocked, I jerked my hand away from the stone and fell to the floor in exhaustion. 6 I wanted so badly to return to the blue or green stones, but I had to regather my energy and my sense of direction. 7 The angels [Messengers]  were quickly all around me serving me. 8 I was given a drink that began to revive me. 9 Soon I was feeling well enough to stand and begin walking back to the other stones. 10 However, the recurring vision of the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] praying finally compelled me to stop.

"What was that back there?" 11 I asked.

12 "When you touch the stones we are able to see a little of what you see, and feel a little of what you feel," said the angel [Messenger]. 13 "We know that all of these stones are great treasures, and all of the revelations they contain are priceless. 14 We beheld for a moment the agony of the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] before His crucifixion [execution], and we felt briefly what He felt that terrible night. 15 It is hard for us to understand how our God [mighty one = Yahooshua][1] could ever suffer like that. 16 It makes us appreciate much more what an honor it is to serve the men for whom He paid such a terrible price."

17 The angels’ [Messengers] words were like lightning bolts straight to my soul. 18 I had fought in the great battle. 19 I had climbed to the top of the Mountain. 20 I had become so familiar with the spiritual realm that I hardly noticed angels [Messengers]  anymore, and I could speak on nearly equal terms with the great eagles. 21 Yet I could not bear to share even a moment of the sufferings of the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] without wanting to flee to a more pleasurable experience. 22 "I should not be here," I almost shouted. 23 "I, more than anyone, deserve to be a prisoner of the evil one!"

24 "Sir," the angel [Messenger] said apprehensively. 25 "We understand that no one is here because he deserves it. 26 You are here because you were chosen before the foundation of the world[2] for a purpose. 27 We do not know what your specific purpose is, but we know that it is very great for everyone on this Mountain."

28 "Thank you. 29 You are helpful. 30 My emotions are being greatly stretched by this place, and they tend to overcome my understanding. 31 You are right. 32 No one is here because he is worthy. 33 Truly, the higher we climb on this Mountain, the more unworthy we are to be here, and the more grace we need to stay here. 34 How did I ever make it to the top the first time?"

35 "Grace[3]," my angel [Messenger] responded.

36 "If you want to help me," I said, "please keep repeating that word to me whenever you see me in confusion or despair. 37 That word I am coming to understand better than any other."

38 "Now I must go back to the red stone. 39 I know now that is the greatest treasure in this room, and I must not leave until I am carrying that treasure in my heart.[4]"

Chapter 4.9 -- The Truth Of Grace

1 The time that I spent at the red stone was the most painful that I have ever experienced. 2 Many times I simply could not take anymore but had to withdraw my hand. 3 Several times I went back to the blue or green stones to rejuvenate my soul before I returned. 4 It was harder to return to the red stone each time, but my Love [Chesed] and appreciation for the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] was growing more through this than anything I had ever learned or experienced.

5 Finally, when the presence of the Father[1] departed from Jesus [Yahooshua] on the Cross [Stake], I could not stand it any longer. 6 I quit. 7 I could tell that the angels [Messengers] , who were also experiencing what I was to a degree, were in full agreement with me. 8 The willpower to touch the stone again simply was no longer in me. 9 I did not even feel like going back to the blue stone. 10 I just laid prostrate on the floor. 11 I was weeping over what the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] had gone through. 12 I wept also because I knew that I had deserted Him just like His disciples. 13 I failed Him when He needed me the most, just like they did.

14 After what seemed like several days, I opened my eyes. 15 Another eagle was standing beside me. 16 In front of him were three stones, one blue, one green, and one red. 17 "Eat them," he said. 18 When I did, my whole being was renewed, and great joy and great soberness both flooded my soul.[2]

19 When I stood up, I caught sight of the same three stones set into the handle of my sword, and then on each of my shoulders. 20 "These are now yours forever," the eagle said. 21 "They cannot be taken from you, and you cannot lose them."[3]

22 "But I did not finish this last one," I protested.

23 "Christ [= The Anointed One = Yahooshua] alone will ever finish that test," he replied. 24 "You have done well enough, and you must go on now."

"Where to?" 25 I asked.

"You must decide, but with the time getting shorter I will suggest that you try to get to the top soon." 26 The eagle then departed, obviously in a hurry.

27 I then remembered the doors. 28 I started toward those that had been so appealing. 29 When I reached the first one it simply did not appeal to me anymore. 30 Then I went to another, and it felt the same. 31 "Something seems to have changed," I remarked out loud.

32 "You have changed," the angels [Messengers]  replied at once. 33 I turned to look at them and was amazed at how much they had changed. 34 They no longer had a naive look about them, but were now more regal and wise-looking. 35 I knew they reflected what had also taken place in me, but I now felt uncomfortable just thinking about myself.

36 "I ask for your counsel," I said to the leader.

37 "Listen to your heart," he said. 38 "That is where these great truths now abide."

39 "I have never been able to trust my own heart," I responded. 40 "It is subject to so many conflicts. 41 I am too subject to delusions, deceptions, and selfish ambitions. 42 It is hard for me to even hear the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] speaking to me above its clamor."

43 "Sir, with the red stone now in your heart, I do not believe that will continue to be the case,[4]" the leader offered with uncharacteristic confidence.

44 I leaned against the wall, thinking that the eagle was not here when I needed him the most. 45 He had been this way before and would know which door to choose. 46 But I knew he would not come back, and I knew that it was right that I choose[5]. 47 As I pondered, the "terrible door" was the only one that I could think of. 48 Out of curiosity I decided to go back and look at it. 49 I had departed from it so fast the first time that I had not even noticed which truth it represented.

50 As I approached it I could feel the fear welling up inside of me, but not nearly as intensely the first time. 51 Unlike the other doors, it was very dark around this one, and I had to get very close to read the truth over it. 52 Mildly surprised, I read "THE JUDGMENT SEAT OF CHRIST [THE JUDGEMENT OF THE ANOINTING OF THE SPIRIT OF YAH][6]. 53 “Why is this truth so fearful?" 54 I asked aloud, knowing that the angels [Messengers]  would not answer me. 55 As I continued looking at it I knew that it was the one I should go through.

56 "There are many reasons that it is fearful," the familiar voice of the eagle responded.

57 "I'm very glad you came back," I replied. 58 "Have I made a poor choice?"

59 "No! 60 You have chosen well. 61 This door will take you back to the top of the Mountain faster than any other. 62 It is fearful because the greatest fear in the creation has its source through that door. 63 The greatest wisdom that men can know in this life, or in the life to come, is also found through that door. 64 Even so, very few will go through it.[7]"

"But why is this door so dark?" 65 I asked.

66 "The light of these doors reflects the attention that the Church [Assembly] is presently giving to the truths behind them. 67 The truth behind that door is one of the most neglected of these times, but it is one of the most important. 68 You will understand when you enter. 69 The greatest authority that men can receive will be entrusted only to those who will go through this door[8]. 70 When you see Christ Jesus [the Spirit of Yah that was upon Yahooshua = Yah] sitting on this throne[9], you, too, will be prepared to sit with Him on it.[10]"

"Then this door would not be so dark and foreboding if we had just given more attention to this truth?" 71 I asked.

72 "That is correct. 73 If men knew the glory that is revealed behind that door, it would be one of the most brilliant," the eagle lamented. 74 "However, it is still a difficult door to pass through. 75 I was told to return and encourage you because soon you will need it. 76 You will see a greater glory, but also a greater terror than you have ever known. 77 But know that because you have chosen the difficult way now, it will be much easier for you later[11]. 78 Because you are willing to face this hard truth now, you will not suffer loss later. 79 Many Love [Chesed] to know His kindness, but very few are willing to know His severity. 80 If you do not embrace both you will always be in danger of deception and of a fall from His great grace."[12]

81 "I know that I would never come here if I had not spent the time that I did at the red stone. 82 How could I keep trying to take the easy way when that is so contrary to the nature of the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua]?" 83 I asked.

84 "But now you have chosen, so go quickly. 85 Another great battle is about to begin, and you are needed at the front," he said.

86 As I looked at the eagle, and the great resolution in his eyes, my confidence grew. 87 Finally I turned toward the door.

Chapter 5.1 -- Part IV, The White Throne

Part 1

1 I gazed one last time around the huge room inside of the Mountain. 2 The gems and treasures that represented the truths of Salvation were breathtaking in their glory. 3 It seemed that there was no end to their expanse, and no way to fully comprehend their beauty. 4 I could not imagine that the rooms which contained the other great truths of the Faith [Emunah] could be any more glorious. 5 This helped me to understand why so many Christians [Believers]  never wanted to leave this level, being content to just marvel at the basic doctrines of the Faith [Emunah]. 6 I knew that I could stay there for eternity and never get bored.

Then the eagle who was standing next to me exhorted: "You must go on!" 7 As I turned to look at him he lowered his voice, but continued, “There is no greater peace and safety than to abide in the Lord’s [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]'s salvation[1]. 8 You were brought here to know this because you will need this Faith [Emunah] for where you are now going, but you must not stay here any longer."

9 The eagle's statement about the peace and safety caused me to think about the courageous warriors who had fought in the battle from the first level of the Mountain, Salvation.

10 They had fought so well and delivered so many, but they had also all been badly wounded. 11 It did not seem that they had found peace and safety here. 12 Then the eagle interrupted my thoughts again as if he were listening to them.

13 "God [Yah] has a different definition of peace and safety than we do. 14 To be wounded in the fight is a great honor. 15 It is by the Lord’s [Adonay = Yahooshua's] stripes that we are healed, and it is through our stripes that we, too, are given the authority for healing. 16 In the very place that the enemy wounds us, once we are healed, we are given the power to heal others. 17 Healing was a basic part of the Lord’s [Adonay = Yahooshua's] ministry, and it is also a basic part of ours. 18 That is one reason why the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] allows bad things to happen to His people, so that they can receive the compassion for others by which the power of healing operates. 19 That is why the Apostle [Emissary] Paul [Shaul] told of his beatings and stonings when his authority was questioned. 20 Every wound, every bad thing that happens to us, can be turned into the authority to do good. 21 Every beating that the great Apostle [Emissary] took resulted in salvation for others. 22 Every wound that every warrior takes will result in others being saved, healed, or restored.[2]"

23 The eagle's words were very encouraging. 24 Standing here among the glory of the treasures of salvation made this truth even more clear and penetrating. 25 I wanted to go shout it from the top of the Mountain so that all who were still fighting would be encouraged by it.

26 Then the eagle continued, "There is another reason why the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] allows us to be wounded. 27 There is no courage unless there is real danger. 28 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] said He would go with Joshua [the Emissary , correctly also Yahooshua] to fight for the Promised Land, but over and over He exhorted him to be strong and courageous. 29 This was because he was going to have to fight, and there would be very real danger. 30 It is in this way that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] proves those who are worthy of the Promises.[3]"

31 I looked at the old eagle, and for the first time I noticed the scars amid his torn and broken feathers. 32 However, the scars were not ugly, but were lined with gold that was somehow not metal, but rather flesh and feathers. 33 Then I could see that it was this gold that gave off the glory that emanated from the eagle, making his presence so awesome.

34 “Why did I not see this before?" I inquired.

35 Until you have beheld and appreciated the depths of the treasures of salvation, you cannot see the glory that comes from suffering for the sake of the gospel [Good News]. 36 Once you have seen it, you are ready for the tests that will release the highest levels of spiritual authority into your life. 37 These scars are the glory that we will carry forever. 38 This is why even the wounds our Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] suffered are with Him in heaven. 39 You can still see His wounds, and the wounds that all of His chosen ones have taken for His sake. 40 These are the medals of honor in heaven. 41 All who carry them Love [Chesed] God [Yah] and His truth more than their own lives. 42 These are the ones who followed the Lamb wherever He went, being willing to suffer for the sake of truth, righteousness and the salvation of men. 43 True leaders of His people, who carry genuine spiritual authority, must have first proven their devotion this way."

44 I looked at the leader of the company of angels [Messengers]  that followed me. 45 I had never witnessed deep emotion in an angel [Messenger] before' but these words were unquestionably moving him greatly, as well as the rest. 46 I really thought that they were about to cry. 47 Then the leader spoke:

48 "We have witnessed many wonders since the creation. 49 But the voluntary suffering of men for the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], and for their fellow men, is the greatest wonder of all. 50 We, too, must fight at times, and we do suffer, but we dwell where there is such light and glory that it is very easy to do this. 51 When men and women who dwell in such a place of darkness and evil with so little encouragement, not able to behold the glory but only having a hope in it, choose to suffer for that hope in which they can only see so dimly in their hearts, it causes even the greatest angels [Messengers] to bow their knee and gladly serve these heirs of salvation. 52 At first we did not understand why the Father decreed that men would have to walk by Faith [Emunah], not beholding the reality and the glories of the heavenly realm, and suffering such opposition. 53 But now we understand that through these sufferings their worthiness to receive the great authority that they will be given as members of His own household is surely proven. 54 Now this walk of Faith [Emunah] is the greatest wonder in heaven. 55 Those who pass this test are worthy to sit with the Lamb on His throne, as he has made them worthy, and they have proven their Love [Chesed]."

56 Then the eagle interjected, "Courage is a demonstration of Faith [Emunah]. 57 The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] never promised that His way would be easy, but He has assured us that it would be worth it. 58 The courage of those who fought from the level of Salvation moved the angels [Messengers]  of heaven to esteem what God [Yah] has wrought in fallen men. 59 They took their wounds in the terrible onslaught, while only beholding darkness and a seeming defeat of the truth, just as our Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] did on His Cross [Stake]. 60 Even so, they did not quit, and they did not retreat."

61 I was again starting to regret that I had not remained on the level of Salvation and fought with those other brave souls. 62 Again, understanding my thoughts, the eagle interrupted them.

63 "By climbing the Mountain you were also demonstrating Faith [Emunah], and wisdom, which does also release authority. 64 Your Faith [Emunah] freed many souls so that they could come to the Mountain for salvation. 65 You, too, received some wounds, but your authority in the kingdom has come more from acts of Faith [Emunah] than by suffering. 66 Because you have been Faithful [Emunah] in a few things you will now be given the great honor of going back to suffer, that you may be made a ruler over many more. 67 But remember that we all work together for the same purposes regardless of whether we are building or suffering. 68 Many more souls will fill these rooms, to the great joy of heaven, if you go higher[4]. 69 You have now been called to climb, and to build, but later you will be given the honor of suffering if you are Faithful [Emunahful] in this."

70 I then turned and looked at the dark and foreboding door over which was written: "The Judgment Seat of Christ [The Anointing of the Spirit of Yah]”. 71 "Just as warmth and peace had flooded my soul each time I looked at the great treasures of Salvation, fear and insecurity gripped me when I looked at this door. 72 Now it seemed that everything in me wanted to stay in this room, and nothing in me wanted to go through that door. 73 Again the eagle answered my thoughts.

74 "Before you enter the door to any great truth you will have these same feelings. 75 You even felt them when you entered into this room filled with the treasures of salvation. 76 These fears are the result of the fall. 77 They are the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. 78 The knowledge from that tree made us all insecure and self-centered. 79 The knowledge of good and evil makes the true knowledge of God [Yah] seem fearsome, when in fact every truth from God [Yah] leads to an even greater peace and security. 80 Even the judgments of God [Yah] are to be desired, because all of His ways are perfect."

81 By now I had experienced enough to know that what seems right is usually the least fruitful path, and often the road to failure[5]. 82 Throughout my journey, the path of greatest risk was the path that lead to the greatest reward. 83 Even so, each time it seemed that more was at stake. 84 Therefore, to make the choice to go higher became more difficult each time[6]. 85 I started to sympathize with those who would stop at some point in their sojourn, and refuse to go on, even though I knew more than ever that this was a mistake. 86 The only true security came from continually moving forward into the realms that required more Faith [Emunah], which was more dependence on the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing].

87 "Yes, it takes more Faith [Emunah] to walk in the higher realms of the Spirit," the eagle added. 88 "The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] gave us the map to His kingdom when He said, 'if you seek to save your life you will lose it, but if you will lose your life for My sake you will find it’.[7] Those words alone can keep you on the path to the top of the Mountain, and will lead you to victory in the great battle ahead. 89 They will also help you to stand before the Judgment Seat of Christ [the Anointing of the Spirit of Yah]."

90 I knew that it was time for me to go. 91 I resolved to always remember the glory of this chamber that contained the treasures of salvation, but I also knew that I had to move beyond them. 92 I had to go on. 93 I turned and with all of the courage I could muster, opened the door to the Judgment Seat of Christ [the Anointing of the Spirit of Yah] and stepped through it. 94 The company of angels [Messengers]  that had been assigned to me took positions all around the door, but did not enter.

95 'What's the matter? 96 Aren't you coming?" 97 I demanded. 98 "Where you are going now you must go alone. 99 We will be waiting for you on the other side."

100 Without responding, I turned and started walking before I could change my mind. 101 Somehow I knew that it was right that I not put my security in the company of angels [Messengers] . 102 As I walked into the darkness I heard the eagle's last words, "After this you will not have your trust in anyone else, even yourself, but only in the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]."

Chapter 5 Part 2

103 I was in the most frightening darkness[1] I had ever experienced. 104 To take each step became a terrible battle with fear. 105 Soon I began to think that I had stepped into hell itself. 106 Finally I decided to retreat, but when I turned to go back I could not see anything. 107 The door was closed and I could not even see where it was located. 108 I started to feel that everything that had happened to me, and everything that had been said to me by the eagles and the angels [Messengers]  had been a ruse to entrap me in this hell. 109 I had been deceived!

110 I cried to the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] to forgive me, and to help me. 111 Immediately I began to see Him on the Cross [Stake], just as when I had laid my hand on the red stone in the chamber I had just left. 112 Again, I beheld the darkness of His soul as he stood alone bearing the sin of the world. 113 In that chamber this had been a terrible darkness to behold, but now it was a light. 114 I resolved that I had to go on, fixing my mind on Him. 115 As I did, with each step peace began to grow in my heart, and it became easier rather than harder as it had been just a few minutes earlier.

116 Soon I was not even aware of the dark and I no longer felt cold. 117 Then I started to see a dim light. 118 Gradually it became a glorious light. 119 Then it became so wonderful that I felt that I was entering into heaven itself. 120 The glory increased with every step. 121 I wondered how anything this wonderful could have an entrance so dark and foreboding. 122 Now I was so enjoying every step.

123 Then the path opened into a hall so large that I did not think that the Earth itself could contain it. 124 The beauty of it could not even be imagined by any reference to human architecture[2]. 125 This exceeded the wonder of anything I had yet experienced[3], including the garden, or the chamber that held the treasures of salvation. 126 I was, at this point, just as overwhelmed with joy and beauty as I had previously been overwhelmed by the darkness and fear just minutes before. 127 I then understood that every time I had experienced great pain or darkness of soul, it had been followed by a much greater revelation of glory and peace.

128 At the far end was the Source of the glory that was emanating from everything else in the room. 129 I knew that it was the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing or Yahooshua[4]], Himself, and though I had now seen Him many times, I began to be a little bit afraid as I walked toward Him.

130 However, this fear was a Holy [Set-Apart] fear that only magnified the great joy and peace that I also felt. 131 I knew that the judgment seat of Christ [the Anointing of the Spirit of Yah] was a source of more security than I had ever experienced, but at the same time, it was the source of a greater, but more pure, fear.

132 I did not notice how great the distance was to the throne. 133 It was so wonderful to just walk here that I did not care if it took me a thousand years to get there. 134 In Earthly terms, it did take me a very long time. 135 In one sense I felt that it was days, and in another, years. 136 But somehow Earthly time had no relevance here.

137 My eyes were so fixed on the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] that I walked a long time before I noticed that I was passing multitudes of people who were standing in ranks to my left (there were just as many to my right, but they were so far away that I could not see them until I reached the throne). 138 As I looked at them I had to stop. 139 They were dazzling, more regal than anyone I had ever seen. 140 Their countenance was captivating. 141 Never had such peace and confidence Grace [Chen]d a human face. 142 Each one was beautiful beyond any Earthly comparison. 143 As I turned toward those who were close to me they bowed in a greeting as though they recognized me.

144 "How is it that you know me?" I asked, surprised at my own boldness to ask them a question.

145 "You are one of the saints fighting in the last battle[5]," a man close by responded. 146 "Everyone here knows you, as well as all of those who are now fighting on the Earth. 147 We are the saints who have served the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] in the generations before you. 148 We are the great cloud of witnesses who have been given the right to behold the last battle. 149 We know all of you, and we see all that you do.[6]"

150 To my surprise, I recognized someone I had known on Earth. 151 He had been a Faithful [Emunahful] believer, but I did not think he had ever done anything of significance. 152 He was so unattractive physically on Earth that it made him shy. 153 Here he had the same features, but was somehow more handsome than any person I had known on Earth. 154 He stepped up to me with an assurance and dignity that I had never seen before in him, or in any man.

155 "Heaven is much greater than we could have dreamed while on Earth," he began. 156 "This room is but the threshold of realms of glory that are far beyond the ability we had to comprehend. 157 It is also true that the second death is much more terrible than we understood.[7] 158 Neither heaven nor hell are like we thought they were. 159 If I had known on Earth what I know here I would not have lived the way that I did. 160 You are greatly blessed to have come here before you have died," he said, looking at my garments.

161 I then looked at myself. 162 I still had the old[8] mantle of humility on, and the armor was still under it. 163 I felt both foul and crude standing before those who were so glorious. 164 I began to think that I was in serious trouble if I was planning to appear before the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing / Yahooshua] like this. 165 Like the eagles, my old acquaintance could understand my thoughts, and he replied to them.

166 "Those who come here wearing that mantle have nothing to fear. 167 That mantle is the highest rank of honor, and it is why they all bowed to you while you passed."

168 "I did not notice anyone bowing to me," I replied, a bit disconcerted. 169 "In fact, I didn't even notice anyone until just now."

170 "It is not improper," he continued. 171 "Here we show each other the respect that is due. 172 Even the angels [Messengers]  serve us here, but only our God [Yah] and His Christ [Anointing of the Spirit of Yah] are worshipped. 173 There is a marked difference between honoring one another in Love [Chesed], and worshipping them. 174 If we had understood this on Earth, we would have treated others very differently. 175 It is here, in the light of His glory, that we can fully perceive and understand one another, and therefore properly relate to each other."

176 I was still ashamed. 177 I had to restrain myself to keep from bowing to them, while at the same time wanting to hide myself because I felt so lowly. 178 Then I began lamenting the fact that my thoughts here were just as foolish as they were on the Earth, and here everyone knew them! 179 I felt both stained and stupid[9] standing before these who were so awesome and pure. 180 Again my old acquaintance responded to these thoughts.

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181 "We have our incorruptible bodies now, and you do not. 182 Our minds are no longer hindered by sin. 183 We are therefore able to comprehend many times what even the greatest Earthly mind can fathom, and we will spend Eternity growing in our ability to understand. 184 This is so that we can know the Father, and understand the glory of His Creation. 185 On Earth you cannot even begin to understand what the least of these here knows, and we are the least of those here."

"How could you be the least?" 186 I asked with disbelief. 187 "There is an aristocracy of sorts here. 188 The rewards for our Earthly lives are the eternal positions that we will have forever.[1] 190 This great multitude are those whom the Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] called 'foolish virgins.' We knew the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing[2]], and trusted in His [Yahooshua’s] Cross [Stake] for salvation, but we did not really live for Him, but for ourselves. 191 We did not keep our vessels filled with the oil of the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit. 192 We have Eternal life, but we wasted our lives on Earth."

193 I was really surprised by this, but I also knew that no one could lie in that place.

194 "The foolish virgins gnashed their teeth in the outer darkness," I protested.

195 "And that we did. 196 The grief that we experienced when we understood how we had so wasted our lives was beyond any grief possible on Earth. 197 The darkness of that grief can only be understood by those who have experienced it. 198 Such darkness is magnified when it is revealed next to the glory of the One we failed. 199 You are standing now among the lowest rank in heaven. 200 There is no greater folly than to know the great salvation of God [Yah], but to then go on living for yourself. 201 To come here and learn the reality of that is a grief beyond what an Earthly soul can experience. 202 We are those who suffered this outer darkness because of this greatest of follies."

203 I was still incredulous. 204 "But you are more glorious and full of more joy and peace than I even imagined, even for those in heaven. 205 I do not feel any remorse in you, and yet I know that here you cannot lie. 206 This does not make sense to me."

207 Looking at me straight in the eyes, he continued, "The Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] also Love [Chesed]s us with a Love [Chesed] greater than you can yet understand. 208 Before His judgment seat I tasted the greatest darkness of soul and remorse that can be experienced. 209 Though here we do not measure time as you do, it seemed to last for as long as my life on Earth had lasted. 210 All of my sins and follies of which I had not repented passed before me, and before all who are here. 211 You cannot understand the grief of this until you have experienced it. 212 I felt that I was in the deepest dungeon of hell, even as I stood before the glory of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 213 He was resolute until my life had been completely reviewed. 214 When I said I was sorry and asked for the mercy of His Cross [Stake], He wiped away my tears and took away the darkness. 215 I no longer feel the bitterness that I knew as I stood before Him, but I remember it. 216 Only here can you remember such things without continuing to feel the pain. 217 A moment in the lowest part of heaven is much greater than a thousand years of the highest life on Earth. 218 Now my mourning at my folly has been turned into joy, and I know that I will know joy forever, even if I am in the lowest place in heaven."

 219 I began to think again of the treasures of salvation. 220 Somehow I knew that all that this man had told me was revealed by those treasures. 221 Every step I had taken up the Mountain, or into it, had revealed that His ways are both more fearful and more wonderful than I had ever been able to comprehend before.

222 Looking at me intently, my former acquaintance continued. 223 "You are not here to just gain understanding, but to experience and be changed. 224 The next level of rank here is many times greater than what we have. 225 Each level after is that much greater than the previous one. 226 It is not just that each level has an even more glorious spiritual body, but that each level is closer to the throne from where all of the glory comes.

227 Even so, I no longer feel the grief of my failure. 228 I really deserve nothing. 229 I am here by Grace [Chen] alone, and I am so thankful for what I have. 230 He is so worthy to be Loved [Cheseded]. 231 I could be doing many wondrous things now in the different realms of heaven, but I would rather stay here and just behold His glory, even if I am on the outer fringes."

Then, with a distant look in his eyes, he added, "Everyone in heaven is now in this room to watch His great mystery unfold, and to watch those of you who will fight the last battle."

"Can you see Him from here?" 232 I asked. 233 "I see His glory far away, but I cannot see Him."

234 "I can see many times better than you can," he answered. 235 "And yes, I can see Him, and all that He is doing, even from here. 236 I can also hear Him. 237 I can also behold the Earth. 238 He gave us all that power. 239 We are the great cloud of witnesses who are beholding you[3]," he repeated.

240 He bowed and then resumed to the ranks. 241 I began walking again, trying to understand all that he had said to me. 242 As I looked over the great host that he had said were the foolish virgins, the ones who had spiritually slept away their lives on Earth, I knew that if any one of them appeared on Earth now that they would be worshipped as Gods [Mighty Ones]. 243 Yet, they were the very least of those who were here!

244 I then began to think of all of the time that I had wasted in my own life. 245 It was such an overwhelming thought that I stopped. 246 Then parts of my life began to pass before me. 247 I began to experience a terrible grief over this one sin. 248 I, too, had been one of the greatest of fools! 249 I may have kept more oil in my lamp than others, but now I knew how foolish I had been to measure what was required of me by how others were doing. 250 I, too, was one of the foolish virgins!

251 Just when I thought I would collapse under the weight of this terrible discovery, a man who I had known and esteemed as one of the great men of God [Yah] I had known, came forward to steady me. 252 Somehow his touch revived me. 253 He then greeted me warmly.

254 This was a man by whom I had wanted to be discipled. 255 I had met him, but we did not get along well. 256 Like a number of others I had tried to get close enough to learn from, I was an irritation to him and he had finally asked me to leave. 258 For years I had felt guilty about this, feeling that I had missed a great opportunity because of some flaw in my character. 259 Even though I had put it out of my mind, I still carried the weight of this failure. 260 When I saw him it all surfaced, and a sick feeling came over me. 261 Now he was so regal that I felt even more repulsive and embarrassed by my poor condition. 262 I wanted to hide but there was no way I could avoid him here. 263 To my surprise, his warmth toward me was so genuine that he soon put me at ease. 264 There did not seem to be any barriers between us. 265 In fact, the Love [Chesed] I felt coming from him almost completely took away my self-consciousness.

266 "I have waited eagerly for this meeting," he said. 267 "You were waiting for me?" 268 I asked. 269 “Why?"

270 “You are just one of many that I am waiting for. 271 I did not understand until my judgment that you were one that I was called to help, to even disciple, but I rejected you."

272 "Sir," I protested. 273 "It would have been a great honor to be discipled by you, and I am very thankful for the time that I did have with you, but I was so arrogant that I deserved the rejection. 274 I know that my rebellion and pride has kept me from having a real spiritual father. 275 This was not your fault, but mine."

276 "It is true that you were prideful, but that is not why I was offended with you. 277 I was offended because of my insecurity, which made me want to control everyone around me. 279 I was offended that you would not accept everything that I said without questioning it. 280 I then started to look for anything that was wrong with you to justify my rejection of you. 281 I began to feel that if I could not control you that you would one day embarrass me and my ministry. 282 I esteemed my ministry more than I did the people for whom it was given to me, so I drove you and many others like you away," he said.

283 "At times I must admit that I thought you had turned into a . . ." and I stopped myself, embarrassed by what I was about to say.

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285 "And you were right," he said with a genuineness that is unknown in the realms of Earth, "I had been given the Grace [Chen] to be a spiritual father, but I was a very bad one. 286 All children are rebellious. 287 They are all self-centered, and think that the world revolves around them. 288 That is why they need parents to raise them. 289 Almost every child will at times bring reproach on his family, but he is still a part of the family. 290 I turned away many of God’s [Yah’s] own children that he had entrusted to me for getting them safely to maturity. 291 I failed with many of those who stayed with me. 292 Most of them suffered terrible and unnecessary wounds and failures that I could have helped them to avoid. 293 Many of them are now prisoners of the enemy. 294 I built a large organization, and had considerable influence in the Church [Assembly], but the greatest gifts that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] trusted to me were the ones who were sent to me for discipling, many of whom I rejected. 295 Had I not been so self-centered and concerned with my own reputation I would be a king here. 296 I was called to sit on one of the highest thrones. 297 All that you have and will accomplish would have been in my heavenly account as well[1]. 298 Instead, much of what I gave my attention to was of very little true eternal significance[2]."

299 “What you accomplished was astounding," I interjected.

300 "What looks good on Earth looks very different here. 301 What will make you a king on Earth will often be a stumbling block to keep you from being a king here. 302 What will make you a king here is lowly and unesteemed on Earth. 303 I failed some of the greatest tests and greatest opportunities that were given to me, one of which was you. 304 Will you forgive me?"

305 "Of course," I said, embarrassed. 306 "But I, too, am in need of your forgiveness. 307 I still think that it was my awkwardness and rebellion that made it difficult for you. 308 In fact, I, too, have not let some get close to me who wanted to for the same reasons that you did not want me around you."

309 "It is true that you were not perfect, and I discerned some of your problems rightly, but that is never reason to reject someone," he replied. 310 "The Lord [Adonay = Yahooshua] did not reject the world when He saw its failures. 311 He did not reject me when He saw my sin. 312 He laid down His life for us. 313 It is always the greater who must lay down his life for the lesser. 314 I was more mature.

I had more authority than you, but I became like one of the goats in the parable; I rejected the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] by rejecting you and the others whom He sent to me."

315 As he talked, his words were striking me deeply. 316 I, too, was guilty of everything that he mentioned. 317 Many young men and women who I had brushed off as not being important enough for my time were now passing through my mind. 318 I wanted desperately to return and gather them together! 319 The grief that I began to feel was even worse than I had felt about wasting my time. 320 I had wasted people![3] 321 Now many of these were prisoners of the enemy, wounded and captured during the battle on the Mountain. 322 This whole battle was for the people, and yet people were often regarded as the least important. 323 We will fight for truths more than for the people for whom they are given. 324 We will fight for ministries while running roughshod over the people in them.

325 "And many people think of me as a spiritual leader! 326 I am truly the least of the saints," I thought out loud.

327 "I understand how you feel," remarked another man. 328 I recognized him as one I had considered the greatest Christians [Believer] leaders of all time. 329 "Paul [Shaul] the Apostle [Emissary] said near the end of his life that he was the least of the saints. 330 Then, just before his death, he even called himself the greatest of sinners.'Had he not learned that in his life on Earth, he, too, would have been in jeopardy of becoming one of the least of the saints in heaven. 331 Because he learned it on Earth he is now one of those closest to the Lord [Adonay =  Yahooshua], and will be one of the highest in rank for all of Eternity."

332 Seeing this man in the company of “the foolish virgins" was the greatest surprise I had yet. 333 "I cannot believe that you, too, are one of the foolish who slept away their lives on Earth.

Why are you here?"

334 "I am here because I made one of the gravest mistakes you can make as one entrusted with the glorious gospel of our Savior. 335 Just as the Apostle [Emissary] Paul [Shaul] progressed from not considering himself inferior to the greatest Apostle [Emissary]s, to being the greatest of sinners, I took the opposite course. 336 I started out knowing that I had been one of the greatest of sinners who had found Grace [Chen], but ended up thinking that I was one of the greatest Apostles [Emissaries]. 337 It was because of my great pride[4], not insecurity like our friend here, that I began to attack everyone who did not see everything just the way I did. 338 Those who followed me I stripped of their own callings, and even their personalities, pressuring them to all become just like me. 339 No one around me could be himself. 340 No one dared to question me because I would crush him into powder. 341 I thought that by making others smaller I made myself greater. 342 I thought that I was supposed to be the Holy [Set-Apart] Spirit to everyone. 343 From the outside my ministry looked like a smooth running machine where everyone was in unity and there was perfect order, but it was the order of a concentration camp. 344 I took the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]'s own children and made them automatons in my own image instead of His. 345 In the end I was not even serving the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], but the idol I had built to myself. 346 By the end of my life I was actually an enemy of the true gospel, at least in practice, even if my teachings and writings seemed impeccably biblical."

347 This was so astounding, coming from this person, I began to wonder if every meeting that I had here was meant to give me a greater shock than the previous one.

"If that is true, that you became an enemy of the gospel, how is it that you are still here?" 348 I questioned.

349 "By the Grace [Chen] of God [Yah], I did trust in the Cross [Stake] for my own salvation, even though I actually kept other men from it, leading them to myself[5] rather than to the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing]. 350 Even so, the blessed Savior remains Faith [Emunah]ful to us even when we are unFaithful. 351 It was also by his Grace [Chen] that the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] took me from the Earth sooner than He would have just so those who were under me could find Him and come to know Him."

352 I could not have been more stunned to think that this was true of this particular man. 353 History had given us a very different picture of him. 354 Reading what was going on in my heart, he continued:

355 "God [Yah] does have a different set of history books than those on the Earth[6]. 356 You have had a glimpse of this, but you do not yet know how different they are. 357 Earthly histories will pass away, but the books that are kept here will last forever. 358 If you can rejoice in what heaven is recording about your life, you are blessed indeed. 359 Men see through a glass darkly, so their histories will always be clouded, and sometimes completely wrong."

"How was it that so many other leaders esteemed you so?" 360 I inquired, still having trouble absorbing what I was hearing.

361 "Very few, even very few Christians [Believers] , have the true gift of discernment[7]. 362 Without this gift it is impossible to accurately discern truth in those of the present or the past. 363 Even with this gift it is difficult. 364 Until you have been here, and been stripped, you will judge others through distorted prejudices, either positive or negative. 365 That is why we were warned not to judge before the time. 366 Until we have been here we just cannot really know what is in the heart of others, whether they are performing good or evil deeds. 367 There have been good motives in even the worst of men, and evil motives in even the best of them. 368 Only here can men be judged by both their deeds and their motives."

"When I return to Earth, will I be able to discern history accurately because I have been here?"

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369 "You are here because you prayed for the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing] to judge you severely, to correct you ruthlessly, so that you could serve Him more perfectly[1]. 370 This was one of the most wise requests you have ever made. 371 The wise judge themselves lest they be judged. 372 The even wiser ask for the judgments of the Lord [Yah the Eternally Self-Existing], because they realize that they cannot even judge themselves well. [2]373 Having come here you will leave with far more wisdom and discernment, but on Earth you will always see through a glass darkly at least to some degree. 374 Your experience here will help you to know men better, but only when you are fully here can you know them fully. 375 When you leave here you will be more impressed by how little you know men rather than by how well you know them. 376 This is just as true in relation to the histories of men. 377 I have been allowed to talk with you because I have in a sense discipled you through my writings, and to know the truth about me will help you, "the famous Reformer[3] concluded.