In a recent conversation the subject of "I am executed with Yahooshua {Jesus} it is no longer I that live but the anointing of the Spirit of Yah {Christ} that lives in me" (Galatians 2:20) was raised.

Pondering this conversation later it occurred to me that many people do not know how to achieve this spiritual state in their own lives and so I thought I would write a bit about why one would seek this state and how one would go about achieving it should one decide it was something of value.

This article seeks to answer these questions.

Before we can discuss accomplishing death with Yahooshua we need to define what it is.

Death with Yahooshua is a spiritual state in which the Spirit of Yah {the LORD} indwells a person at such a level that the Spirit of Yah guides and directs that person at a level that in some measure it is Yah living in and through that person rather than the person living in their own strength and ability.

Death with Yahooshua is NOT necessarily a visible spiritual state.  Some who are truly dead with Yahooshua AND who have achieved a high level of anointing (infilling with the set-apart {holy} Spirit of Yah) will be visibly different but most of the time there is no visible difference.

Death with Yahooshua is a state in which the will, thoughts, words and actions of the person who has died with Yahooshua are subject in large measure to the Spirit of Yah and their own earthly desires are at some material level laid aside in order for Yah to live through them.

Most people would question why on earth one would seek "death with Yahooshua" – the short answer is that this is what we were created for – to have such a close and intimate relationship with Father Yah that He can live in and through us.

That is "the way" that Yahooshua refers to when he states "I am the way, the truth and the light" – it is the way of self-sacrifice, of setting aside self and worldly desires so that Yah can live in and through us and therefore reign on earth.

We are called to align our intellect, our minds, our wills, our words and our actions with that which we are lead to do by the Spirit of Yah in order that He can move through us.

This is the highest and most important spiritual state on earth, it is why we were created, to be in such close fellowship with our Daddy in Heaven that He infills and indwells us.

If you have any fear of the Day of Judgement, if you have any respect for Daddy Yah, if you desire to please Him and bring Him joy then dying with Yahooshua is a non-negotiable necessity.

If you are happy to blunder along from day to day, do not think there is a Day of Judgment and do not fear spending eternity in the lake of fire and brimstone then this article is NOT for you.

Without Faith it is not possible to please Yah.

Dying to self or dying with Yahooshua is first and foremost a work of faith.

It is an invisible state, a state that is not readily amenable to intellectual interpretation, it relates to a state of being and a level of relationship with Daddy Yah so, before one can seek this state one must believe by faith that Daddy Yah exists, one must choose by faith to seek to please Him, one must choose by faith to seek to die with Yahooshua and one must believe by faith that all these elements are valid, valuable and achievable.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen.

Once you have chosen to exercise your will to seek death with Yahooshua by faith the next step is to speak the words that are necessary to bring this into existence.

All things are created by words, our entire knowledge of the things of the Kingdom of Yah is framed and defined by words and, in some cases, words associated with tangible experiences.

Prayers are simply petitions or requests to the Court of Heaven for consideration by the presiding Judge, Father Yah, assisted by our advocate, Yahooshua the anointed of Yah and opposed by the prosecutor or accuser Satan and his cohorts of Angelic and demonic beings.

Before you can die with Yahooshua you must at some level take a decision to seek death with Yahooshua and you must then SPEAK out the words that are necessary for this state to be achieved.

There is no simple recipe, each person will walk this road using different words, prayers, etc but the principles are valid for all.

Following are some prayers that you might choose to pray in seeking to die with Yahooshua.

All should be prefaced with wording along the lines of "Father Yah I come to you in the name of Yahooshua and I ask that …" and should end with wording similar to "I ask this in the name of Yahooshua" – it is up to you to determine the wording that seems most appropriate to you.

In praying these prayers please keep in mind that the change that you are seeking is complex, multifaceted, abstract, intangible and takes time to achieve – you will need to pray these prayers regularly for years and do what you find to do from time to time in order to reach the required spiritual state.

Be aware that this is a journey that you are embarking on that will last for the rest of your life if you are willing to walk this road for that long, and you should walk it for the rest of your life because it leads to the most important spiritual state available to us as human beings.

Prayers might include:

… I ask you to put my flesh to death with Yahooshua and to fill me with your set-apart Spirit that I may serve you more perfectly …

… I ask you to help me to overcome to the end …

… I ask you to help me to live my life so I may be found to be a good and faithful servant on the Day of Judgment …

… I ask you to help me to bring you Joy every day of my life …

… I ask you to show me the level of my present deception and how to correct it …

… I ask you to judge me severely and correct me harshly that I may serve you more perfectly …

… I ask you to enlarge my territory in knowledge of you and your ways and your will and your kingdom …

… I ask you to take the people you do not want in my life out …

… I ask you to bring the people you want in my life in …

… I ask you to close the doors in my life that you desire closed …

… I ask you to open the doors in my life that you desire opened …

… I ask you to grant me sensitivity to know when you are opening or closing doors or taking people out or in and I ask you to help me not to get in your way …

… I ask you to speak to me in whatever way I am able to hear you – through people, radio, TV, videos, movies, newspapers, magazines, books, emails, websites or in any other way I am able to hear you …

… I give my life to you totally to do with as you see fit …

… humble me when I become proud …

… correct me whenever I step out of line …

… my desire is to please you and serve you to the full extent that you desire for the rest of my life …

You should also pray defensive prayers, take the bread and wine of the covenant regularly (I do so daily), as discussed in other articles on the ETI List.

Pray anything as you are led and, by faith, expect that your prayers will be answered.

Be alert to guidance in whatever shape or form it comes to you and do your best not to kick against the guidance that will follow from praying prayers such as those listed above.

In the first year after I asked Father to take the people He did not want in my life out he removed a large number of people from my life.

Be aware that some of the above prayers may result in almost immediate answers but that most of the time the answers to these prayers will come on an on-going basis for years and years.  As a guide, death to self will probably take at least five to ten years of committed and obedient service to Yah before you reach a level where the level of death to self becomes apparent to those around you.  It can happen more rapidly if you really "go for it!"

During this time you may have many intense experiences and may experience great rejection, misunderstanding, opposition, criticism, etc.

The forces of darkness HATE people who make the choices and pray the prayers listed above so expect all hell to break lose against you when you start seeking this state of being.

Expect personal loss, financial loss, material loss, emotional pain beyond anything you have ever considered possible, you will, in time if you are diligent and committed experience the pain of death in a pronounced and enduring fashion.  BUT, IF (and it is a BIG IF) you continue, if your commitment does not cave it, if your resolve is significant you will eventually attain your goal.

You may not achieve the fullness of what is possible, very few people do and in this age there is no one who is walking at anything near the fullness of what is possible but that should not discourage you.

Your benchmark is Yahooshua NOT other people in this age.  Your goal should be to walk in the power and authority and anointing that Yahooshua walked in, to do the works Yahooshua did and GREATER works, to be an example to others and to roll back the oppressive deep darkness that blankets the world today.

In order to die with Yahooshua words are not enough, actions are also required.

Faith actions will be required as Father leads you down the road He has chosen for you.

He might ask you to sell all you own and give to the poor, He might tell you to move to another country, He might tell you to do any number of things and it is a measure of your commitment and death to self as to how readily you obey in what He calls you to do.

Father will not only call you to do things that involve what people might regard as noble sacrifice, He can ask you to do any number of things.

It might be as simple as stopping and giving a word of knowledge or encouragement and some money to a person at the side of the road but it could be much more than that.

However, in your quest to be put to death with Yahooshua one of the most important actions that Father is likely to require of you is fasting.

Yahooshua fasted for forty days in the wilderness before he began his ministry, there are other examples.  Moses fasted twice for forty days while he was on the Mountain with Yah.  In both cases they undertook total fasts – in modern terms it is probable that you will die before you can complete a forty day total fast with no food and no water – one must be walking under an extremely intense anointing before such a fast is possible.

However a forty day fast in which only water is consumed is entirely possible and I know a number of people who have undertaken such fasts, some more than once.  There is a school of thought which holds that one should not enter full time ministry without undertaking a forty day water only fast.

You should ONLY undertake such a fast IF Father clearly instructs you to do so and you should be careful not to engage in demanding physical activity.  It is probable that for the last ten to twenty days of the fast you will be too weak to do much and you may find yourself confined to bed.

It is vital to understand that it is entirely appropriate for you to feel weak – you are after all in a very real sense seeking the death of your flesh in a forty day fast and this weakens your resistance to the Spirit of Yah operating in your body and in your life.

It really is so that one is seeking a state in which the presence of the Spirit of Yah in your body is so great that you are dead without His Spirit and you are only able to live by His Spirit within you.

Anything less than this is a weak counterfeit of what Yah desires in your life.

I personally would suggest that if you do such a fast you might take a small quantity of bread and grape juice up to three times a day, pray the terms of the covenant and ask Father to put your flesh to death with Yahooshua and fill you with His Spirit. Others would see this as a compromise.

If you are not able to take time off work at the level that will allow you to be too weak to work for a period of several weeks you might consider other forms of fast.

I have once undertaken eight three day fasts at intervals of ten days – seven days eating normally and three days fasting and I have also once undertaken seven three day fasts at intervals of seven days – four days eating normally and three days fasting.

In the latter case I undertook a total fast barring a small amount of bread and grape juice for the first three days and last three days of the seven fasts – I was on medication that precluded me fasting absolutely totally.  For the remaining five fasts I drank reasonably large quantities of water.

It is regarded as inadvisable that one should go on more than one total three day fast (no solids or liquids) in a period of three to six months as there is apparently a risk of kidney damage.

Do whatever Father leads you to do at any point in time, this is NOT recipe stuff.

One may also make personal physical sacrifices in other ways such as spending considerable periods of time praying or worshiping or reading inspired texts – I once read the entire bible in about seven days spending the entire feast of unleavened bread reading.

Father may ask other sacrifices of you.

The issue is obedience and drawing close to Father NOT ritual or recipe.

As you journey down this road EXPECT to hear Father more clearly, EXPECT Him to test your obedience, the more you obey the more you will grow.

Different people will grow in different ways, if you do not find yourself healing the sick and raising the dead do not be discouraged, Father may be anointing you in other ways, including in wisdom in business.

Disobedience is the number one obstacle to achieving death with Yahooshua – if you refuse to do the things that Yah asks you to do, whether as simple as giving a beggar some money and encouragement or giving a prophetic message to a high profile minister of religion to giving away some asset you are emotionally attached to, to fasting, to … you will NOT grow in Him and you will NOT die to self and achieve death with Yahooshua.

The more you obey, no matter what, the more you will grow.

Worrying about what people think, particularly what people at church think or what the Pastor thinks or your wife or husband thinks or … is another major factor that will prevent you from growing in Yah and dying to self.  Fear of people and the reactions of people is probably the single biggest factor that prevents people achieving what we are discussing in this article or which causes people who have achieved very high levels of relationship, anointing and death to self to fall away.

If you go this route expect to be taken out of the formal church establishment as an almost guaranteed part of the journey.

Pride, lust and other factors can all get in the way.

Remember that the entire panoply of the forces of darkness hate those who seek to die with Yahooshua and they will do all they can to distract you, lie to you, tell you it is not important or that you have got there already, etc.

As you may have realized, the essence of death with Yahooshua is about becoming a truly anointed one.

You may also have realized by now that the lack of the above knowledge, prayers, fasts, etc is one of the major reasons why there are so few truly anointed one's on earth.  Remember that a few months ago Yah said to me that there were less than 100,000 people on earth who were truly anointed and of those there were less than 5,000 who were sufficiently anointed to be making some sort of difference on earth.

The question for you is whether YOU are one of those or whether you ASPIRE to be one of those and whether you are willing to pay the price to become one of those or to retain your standing if you are already one of those.

Remember that there are only two conditions – you are either getting closer to Yah or closer to Satan, you cannot get a certain distance up Yah's mountain and remain there indefinitely, you must keep climbing or the forces of darkness will pull you back.

Remember also that the word "Christian" at least nominally means "anointed one" and that virtually none of those who call themselves "Christian" are in fact truly anointed at a level where they are actually doing something of value for the Kingdom of Yah – where are YOU on this scale? – truly an anointed one or simple a nominal "Christian"?

Conclusion

The highest achievement on earth is to become a truly anointed servant of Yah, one who has put Yah first, who has died with Yahooshua, this is the MOST VALUABLE prize to bring to the throne of Judgment on THAT GREAT DAY!

Are you prepared?

Are you willing to make those sacrifices?

May Yah bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you and give you peace.

In a number of recent articles I have addressed the issues of the meaningless religious words that are in widespread use to describe the Almighty and those associated with Him as well as clarifying why Yahooshua is not and cannot be Yah.

This article explores in more detail how Yahooshua accomplished what he did and how you can accomplish what you are called to do.

One of the most significant verses in the bible, little recognized and even less understood is Galatians 2:20.

In its traditional rendering it reads: "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." KJV

A more accurate rendering would be: "I am executed with Yahooshua (the anointed one of Yah): nevertheless I live; yet not I, but the anointing of the Spirit of Yah liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of Yah, who loved me, and gave himself for me." KJV (adjusted)

The most critical piece of this verse can be rendered "I am put to death with Yahooshua and it is no longer I that live but the SPIRIT OF YAH that lives in me"

The only relevance of Yahooshua in this verse is:

1. That I seek to die to self as Yahooshua died to self.
2. I continue to live by the same faith that brought Yahooshua back to life, FAITH IN YAH and the promises of Yah.

This verse is about being filled with the Spirit of YAH so that He can live on earth THROUGH YOU and faith in YAH that He will do this.

This is about giving oneself so totally over to Yah that you no longer live other than to exercise your will second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year and decade by decade for the rest of your life to permit Yah to have total freedom to use your body to do His will on earth.

At this point you can claim to truly be an anointed one on earth!  And, at this point it will no longer matter to you that you are seen by others to be an anointed one because your entire satisfaction will flow from your intimate personal relationship with Yah Himself, YOUR DADDY!

This is one of the reasons why the label "Christian", which at least nominally means "anointed one" is such a farce and so meaningless – virtually all who appropriate this label to themselves do not have a clue what they are talking about and are certainly NOWHERE NEAR to the above.

Myself included.

In the middle of 1994 for a period of about three hours I personally had an experience of what the above is like.

I had a dramatic life changing encounter with Yah in about March 1993 when I was close to taking my own life and was headed for hell in the fast lane and about to pass the last off ramp.

Yah spoke to me.

I committed myself totally to do whatever He called me to do.

Accepted the bible as "The word of God and without Error".

Spent hours daily in prayer, reading the bible, listening to teaching tapes.

On the morning of 2 January 1994 at about 03h00 Yah filled my bedroom with the rushing mighty wind described in Acts chapter 2 and placed His hand on me for about twenty minutes imparting an intense infilling of His Spirit.

I started to prophesy, to lay hands on people and see them healed, be used in all sorts of ways.

About the middle of that year I traveled to Malawi.

I ministered, the power of the Spirit of Yah flowing through me was so strong that people could not stand, I walked through a hospital and saw people with faith to be healed, walked over to them, prayed for healing and moved on with absolute certainty they were healed.

That night I met with three shepherds {pastors} of the Assemblies of God church in Lilongwe, Malawi.

As I moved towards the most senior, Yah told me to tell them to move the furniture, they did, he fell to the ground under the power of the Spirit of Yah.  I started to speak over him but I had NO KNOWLEDGE of what was coming out of my mouth, the only active participation that I had in what was happening was that I could have chosen to prevent my mouth from speaking.

Yah spoke to this man for about twenty minutes, ALL in the first person but I guarantee that not a soul in that room thought for one second that James Robertson was speaking – we all knew that the Almighty Creator was speaking through James.

I moved to the next man, the same thing happened, he fell to the ground under the power of the Spirit of Yah and Yah spoke through me.

Then the third.

Finally I sat down and Yah spoke to me for about twenty minutes through my own mouth.  Again, there was no uncertainty as to who was speaking.

For the next two or three hours I taught.

But I taught things I did not know, there was somewhat more engagement of my intellect and faculties but effectively Yah was teaching through me simply through my willingness to be a vessel.

It has never happened again.

In the months and years that followed strife in my marriage slowly tore down the anointing and distracted me from my commitment.  The anointing cannot be sustained in an environment of domestic strife.

At various times I have reached some level of anointing but NEVER anything like what I have described above.

But, even then there was a catch – Yah could ONLY speak using language that I understood, words that my mouth knew how to frame and that our understanding knew how to interpret.  He used God, the LORD, Jesus, Christ and Cross because if he had used Yah the eternally self-existing, Yahooshua, spirit of Yah and stake we would not have understood the message and would most likely have rejected it.

The KEY POINT of sharing this with you is that right then, in that poorly furnished room in Malawi I KNEW what it was like to be Yahooshua!

The year before that Yah had said to me "read the Gospels as though YOU are Yahooshua" – I did, so by the time I had this experience in Malawi I had in detail read the Gospels repeatedly imagining that I, James Robertson, was the anointed prophet of Galilee.  That may shock you, you may think it presumptious even blasphemous but I would be lying to you if I told you otherwise.

So, when I met Loraine last year I KNEW that her word was true!

I met Loraine last year in July over the Internet and face to face at the beginning of August.

Before I met her Yah caused me to trip and fall flat on my face while carrying a computer, video camera, tripod, etc such that I could not brace myself or deflect my fall at all.  I was winded, injured and humiliated in front of about fifty people and then I still had to get up and deliver a forty five minute technical presentation at a major national conference.

That night, when I got on my knees and asked Yah why I had been judged this way His answer was roughly "pride – I need you to humble yourself before you meet Loraine tomorrow night – listen and do not say much – she has the third closest relationship with me of any person on earth right now …"

I met Loraine the following evening, she hosted me to dinner in her home, a delightful and charming woman with a wonderful secret.

For nearly thirty four years she has been walking as close to Daddy Yah as just about anyone else on this planet.

Well over a dozen dead have walked out of hospitals and morgues as a consequence of her ministry, she prophesies over nations and is consulted by governments, she has seen sick healed, storms calmed, been translated dozens of kilometres in minutes for a journey that should have taken an hour, the ONLY experience that she has not had that Yahooshua has had is to walk on water!  ALL THE REST have been real experiences in her life.

As she shared her life story, with no glory for herself just a meek and humble joy in what she experienced every day with her Daddy (her word) I knew with certainty that every word was true, that these experiences were real, that here was a woman who knew her heavenly Father as deeply as Yahooshua knew Him when Yahooshua walked the earth with the difference that she had done this for thirty four (34) years NOT three and a half.

Yes, there had been wrong turnings and mistakes, which she was quite prepared to talk about as well but in all things she had overcome so far in her life and was making a difference to the lives of others.

She spoke with respect of a great team of intercessors praying for her and her ministry and this world under her guidance.  Correction brought to high profile people.

Deliverance of high profile Satanists and Witches, dramatic demonic manifestations.

This beautiful and charming woman shared in a few hours a life story that could stand side by side with any account contained in the bible.

I left there absolutely certain that I had heard Yah correctly when He told me that she was one of those that was closest to Him on earth right now.

In the days that followed I got to know her more and learned more about her.

What I saw that first evening was that she was totally filled with the Spirit of Yah and was extremely close to Him at a level that I had never before seen in any human being.

I share this testimony in the hope that you will see more clearly the picture that I am seeking to build.

One of the principles that Loraine advocates as a necessity is regular fasting.

She maintains that you cannot seriously enter into any form of ministry without first going on a forty day (water only) fast, she has done something like seven in her life as well as numerous three day total fasts (Esther – no food and no fluid), 21 day (Daniel), etc.

She bases this on the forty days that Yahooshua spent in the wilderness being tempted by Satan and the two periods of forty days that Moses spent on the mountain with Yah receiving the Ten Commandments.

I am sure she is correct.

Technically at the end of a forty day fast one would be well on the way to starving to death, one is certainly well on the way to putting one's flesh to death in a significant way.

I have just completed seven three day fasts over seven weeks and that was a challenge for me, the thought of forty days with water only is a daunting prospect but one that I believe we should all be willing to embrace if we do it for the right reason – to die to self and be filled with the Spirit of Yah.

"I am put to death with Yahooshua it is no longer I that live but the Spirit of Yah that lives in me"

The question must be for all who read this – are YOU prepared to lay down your life to this extent – I have an excuse, I am on medication and clinically I cannot fast on water only for forty days without severe clinical repercussions but it is NOT a good excuse because if I had the faith to do the forty day fast I would probably be healed and no longer need the medication.

This is where the piece about "by the faith of the Son of Yah" comes in! (

So, my challenge to you is to give serious consideration to YOUR level of commitment on this – do YOU desire to do the same or greater works than Yahooshua – it is there, it is going to take more than a half-hearted forty day fast BUT it is there for the taking of ALL who TRULY SEEK IT, I have total certainty of this!

Do not get me wrong, it took Loraine a LOT MORE than a forty day fast to get to the level of relationship and anointing that she has walked in.

Selling a successful business and giving away all the proceeds and moving to a town where nobody knew her and living by faith without a job and without begging.  Driving a car with NO FUEL in the tank for months, praying constantly for a creative miracle to supply the fuel to get her from point A to point B.  Sitting down to table with no food in the house.

Driving at 120km per hour with her eyes closed learning to hear so clearly that she could travel for kilometres like this.

Faith that is extreme, on the face of it reckless, childlike in simplicity, total devotion to her Daddy, her childlike excitement at being used by Him, her wonderment at each new miracle performed through her, no pride, no complacency, a simple wonderment at her wonderful heavenly Daddy!

So, what are YOU waiting for, we are ALL called to be like this, IF we were all like this then the WHOLE WORLD would be serving our Father in heaven and Yahooshua could return to take up his kingdom.

Instead, Yahooshua is seated at the right hand of his Father WAITING for his enemies to be made his footstool!

It should be noted that there are different anointing's for different roles.

Not all of us are called to walk as power prophets as described above BUT a huge number more are called than are doing anything more than the most elementary attempts to walk in that power.

Others are called to supernatural wisdom in commerce, science, engineering, technology, law, education, medicine, etc, etc but few realize that this level of anointing is possible and fewer still are really making an effort to walk in it.

If you are NOT close to what is described above then I challenge you as to whether you can truly say you are a believer, let alone a servant – this is why the body of believers is so weak.

When is the last time YOU prayed "Father give me the anointing to be ALL that you want ME to be on this earth today" and then prayed "Father please lead me to make ALL the sacrifices that you want me to make in order to achieve this level of anointing" ?

And then, "Father, please cause me to pray all that I need to pray to achieve ALL that you want me to achieve in my life" …

and other extreme prayers?

Are YOU willing to make a difference?

Do you WANT to make a difference?

Are you WILLING TO PAY THE PRICE?

The ridicule when your new found faith does not work?

Losing friends and family?

Opposition from the forces of darkness?

If you count for anything on earth today know this, the forces of darkness will be making LIFE DIFFICULT for you right now.

If they are not then you are NOT (making a difference)!

Building on the messages that have gone before this, let me draw your attention to another widely incorrectly interpreted verse Revelation 20:4:

"And I saw thrones, and they sat upon them, and judgment was given unto them: and I saw the souls of them that were beheaded for the witness of Yahooshua {Jesus}, and for the word of Yah {God}, and which had not worshipped the beast, neither his image, neither had received his mark upon their foreheads, or in their hands; and they lived and reigned with the anointing of the Spirit of Yah {Christ} a thousand years" KJV (adjusted)

Notice, this does NOT say that Yahooshua will reign on earth for a thousand years, it says that believers will reign with the ANOINTING OF THE SPIRIT OF YAH for a thousand years.

That thousand years commenced in May 2003 when Satan was cast into the Pit for a thousand years.

We are already supposed to be reigning and, it turns out, that Loraine has been anointing men and women as kings for some years!

Like Loraine, these people may not be very visible but they ARE there and will become more prominent in time BUT they, too, need to learn the lesson that is contained in this article and become much more committed.

And, by the way, the mark of the beast is NOT some computer micro-chip, it is the sin of breaking ANY of the ten commandments either with our thoughts and what we believe (IN our foreheads) or in what we write or contract (IN our hands) – so get the names right, observe the true Sabbath strictly, etc, etc.

As for Jesus, he is here already as any number of demons and fallen angels that answer to the name of Jesus and which manifest at times with human bodies that look just like people expect Jesus to look but these are NOT Yahooshua the anointed of Yah, the son of Miriam, born in Bethlehem of Yahood about 2007 years ago.

I pray that this article will challenge you to review your service to Yah and your relationship to Him and to step out in faith seeking to be put to death with Yahooshua that Yah may live in and through you!